Day 308

Day 308

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Physical:

First thing this morning, when the CNA tried to give DH a bath, he wimpered evry time she tried to move him.  She did not proceed, but called the nurse.  When the nurse got here and evaluated DH, she told me to go on and give him another dose of pain med combined with a dose of a calmative.

Since then, DH has slept all day.  He is not responsive when someone tries to talk to him.  His breathing has alternated between soundeing labored, sounding congested, and just sounding quietly “normal”.

People:

The CNA and the nurse were here this morning.  In the early afternoon the “prodigal” son came by … first time since June.  This evening the dialysis nurse came by .. not a “professional” visit, just a personal one.

I had to make some phone calls that felt weird .. to cancel the next dialysis supply delivery (I have a week’s supply on hand, and should I need more than that the clinic will provide it); and I had to call the pharmacy to tell them to take ALL Rxs for DH off automatic refill.

I also talked to DH’s brother (who plans to come tomorrow), and had a nice long conversation with a good friend.

I exchanged a lot of emails today with another good friend, and with my DIL.

Emotions:

Right now, I feel ready for this strange day to quietly end.  I’m sad for the ones who couldn’t be bothered to visit DH until now, when I don’t know if he actually knows they’re there or not.

I feel a little stressed that for all the assistance hospice has offered, it feels a bit like some of the things I need to know how to handle are being ignored.

I feel sad but not “distraught” (sp?)  I’m very glad DIL is coming; for tonight I think I’m happy to be alone.

I feel like there are things I should be doing, but not really sure what.  I did (finally) clean the kitchen floor; and I vacuumed the “public” rooms.  All laundry is put away.

I think I should notify people .. of what?  There’s nothing really to say, and no time line.

Mornings have become a b it hectic, so I thought I could just as easily post at night.  I don’t know how many more posts there will be.