Day 295
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Physical
This was a better day than the last few have been. DH still slept most of the day; but when he
was awake, he was more alert and responsive than he’s been bing. He tried – again – to look at his
magazine. This time when he got sleepy
again he asked me to turn off the lights.
He ate a little better, but not by much. And since I have no knowledge of how the body
works (other than a general vague understanding), I will probably never figure
out how “output” can be so much greater than “intake”. Enough said.
He was, as always, somewhere else.
He slept well, but woke around 7:00 “in a car” .. and is
completely convinced he is in a car and can’t get it started. Nothing this morning (Thursday) seems to
deter him from that mind set.
People:
The CAN came early as always now. Around 1:00 the chaplain came for a
visit. He stayed about an hour (and DH
slept the whole time), and mostly just listen to me babble about nonsense.
In the evening I had a lovely long phone conversation with my
2 sisters-in-law.
Emotions:
I felt less stressed last night, after both the chaplain’s
visit and the phone conversations. This
morning is a bit rough, with his mind so far “off”. But he’s awake (for now), and seemingly alert
and responsive. And confused.
Yesterday I found out that TGF’s kids will be at her mother’s
for the weekend. She said it’s so she
and DSS can get some yard cleaning done (because he “can’t” (won’t!!) function
around the boys). In the past, he’s
refused to take Saturday off work … so it makes me wonder if my Sunday is going
to get cut short again. She won’t tell
me, so nothing I can do but wait and see what happens. My frustration level is so high … so many
things I need help with (because I can’t see well), and there is NO one to help
… and she has less and less time to be bothered. I know I’m being completely unfair; but it
just feels like they sucked every penny they could out of me, and now that
there is nothing else they can no longer be bothered.
I have to find something to do today so I don’t keep fretting
about things I can’t control. I think
cleaning out closets is a mistake … all I do is move stuff from one place to
another. With no way to get rid of
things, I don’t accomplish anything. I
can’t sew because there is no one to get the machine threaded for me. Maybe I’ll wash the glass on the storm
doors. That should take me all of 5
minutes!
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