Day 288

Day 288

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Physical:

For the most part DH had a good day.  Toward evening he started with wanting to go home,.  I got him up late morning or around noon .. not even sure ..  I had a bit of a struggle getting him dressed (ended up having to change the bed), but at least getting into the chair went a little better.  I am slowly getting the hang of how to do that.  And once he got his drink and pills, he went on to sleep for all afternoon.  I had to wake him up to eat (it was after that he was talking about going home).  He ate a little better, 2 chicken wings (they were fat wings) and some salad.  I thought he had eaten all of his salad; but later discovered most of it spilled on the floor. L  He took so long to eat I didn’t try to give him the 2^nd protein drink.  Getting him settled for the night was again a hassle.  Getting him “cleaned up” .. over and over .. is So frustrating.

Once settled, he went on to sleep and slept well.

I had to wake him for a ill when the CAN got here, but he had no trouble going back to sleep.

People:

The CAN came, early morning as is now usual.  That’s all.

Emotions:

For some reason, the last few days I’ve been more weepy than I have for a long time.    I can think of lots of “excuses”, but honestly, I don’t really know why.  I spend too much of my day just pacing around the house.  I know I could be doing things, but just can’t get my mind on anything.  I know at least some of the problem is that I’ve got inflammation in my eyes again (have learned to recognize the symptoms).  And there’s the fact that this winter seems never-ending.

For awhile I was able to get a nap during the afternoon.  For some reason I haven’t been able to do that for awhile now.  I am sleeping better at night; but still having to get up way too early.  I think I’m really not a morning person.  Well, getting up and taking my time getting routine stuff done is fine.  But having my whole routine disrupted is not working out for me yet.  I know I have to adjust, but can’t seem to get there.  This moring the CAN took the pad off the bed (it was “dirty”) .. and I broke down in tears just because I had just had to wash it yesterday.  It’s not that big a deal, but I just fell apart over something that trivial.  Plus the fact that I’m tired of doing laundry!  I’ve always been really weird about laundry (stemming from more than 30 years ago when I had to – literally – walk about 15 blocks to a Laundromat with a toddler).  I hate for it to pile up.  I guess this is karma now,  I’m having no choice … sheets and towels and bed pads  pile up so fast.

Today (Thursday) is my brother’s birthday.  I have realized I don’t have his phone number, or my sister’s.  I need to update my “phone book”.  One more thing I can’t do without help .. and the only person available isn’t actually available except for a few hours a week, and there’s never enough time.  And if anything else comes up, it precludes the one afternoon.  Very frustrating.