Day 287

Day 287

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Physical:

This was a very strange day.  It started “off”, when I had to wake DH to take an early pill.  Then he was wakeful off and on; but I didn’t get him up since I was waiting for the CAN (delayed because of the weather).  After she left he did settle down;, and went back to sleep.  At one point he woke a bit, and I took him his protein drink and pills.  Then he went back to sleep.  In the end, he stayed in bed all day, and slept the majority of it.  At one wakeful spell I took him a sandwich.  He ate about 2 bites of it (and that took half an hour), then tried to put it on a table.  He missed and it went on the floor. Laater I fixed a nice (nicer than “usual”!) supper, oven fried chicken and salad.  He ate about half a piece of chicken.  He did drink another glass of the protein drink with his evening pills.

He was mostly awake for his evening TV shows.  Since he’d slept so much, I wasn’t sure if he’d want to watch something else; but he didn’t, and went to sleep.

He’s been wakeful early this morning.  After he gets bathed, I’m hoing he’ll be relaxed and sleep more .. I know all too well if I get him up too early, it just makes him have a bad day.

People:

The CAN came around 10:30 or so.

Emotions:

I assume a combination of built up stress, the weather, and a lot of accumulated tired (from moving furniture) hit me all at once.  I was weepy all day long, and couldn’t pinpoint a specific reason.  The facts that DH won’t eat and sleeps so much make me sad.  His dementia upsets me, because I know he can’t helpit but it frustrates me something awful.  It’s hard to “play along” when he keeps asking things that don’t make sense; or he doesn’t like my answers.  (i.e., “who’s house is this?” my answer: “we live here”; he gets annoyed occasionally angry, because he “knows” that’s not true).

His room looks nice, though I’d still like to get a bit more of the random “junk” out.    The rest of the house looks OK.  It would be better if I had any way of getting rid of the donations .. they just pile up, and no one takes them off, and nothing is open on Sunday to take things to.  I hate to just throw things in the trash that are perfectly good; but that’s what may end up happening. 

Hopefully today I’ll do some general cleaning; but it’s cloudy, chilly, rainy, so not looking good.  And besides, no one really cares.  I’ve had people come to the house and tell me “it doesn’t matter” (referring to whether I thought it was clean or not) .. well, it matters to me; but I’m getting to the point where it doesn’t.  (and those are the people who go and tell someone else how nasty my house was and why don’t I keep it cleaner since I am home all the time with nothing else to do). 

Ow (Wednesday morning) CAN has come and gone, so we’ll see what today holds.  DH is still sleepy, but coughing a lot.  I don’t know if he’ll go on back to sleep or not.