Day 286
Monday, March
3, 2014
Physical:
Some days I
can check on DH off and on during the morning, and while he stirs a bit he
mostly just wants to sleep. This wasn’t
one of those days. By 10:30 he’d been
restless and waking up to the point that I just got him on up. I sort of suspected how the day would go from
there, and wasn’t far off. In less than
2 hours he wanted to lay down again and take a nap. One things I guess I should have expected,
but didn’t … since the chair now sits
just a few feet from the bed, he decided he could just get up and step over to
the bed to lay down. I caught him before
he got to the point of actually trying to get up; and went on and got him to
the bed. In theory, by eliminating the
wheelchair step, he’s “easier” to move and therefore I can move him back and
forth as he wants. NOT. But anyway, he lay down .. and slept for more
than 4 hours.
The evening
went downhill after that. He insisted he
had to get up and go to the bathroom. It
was like he “backslid” on that issue. I
will skip details, but it was a long frustrating evening for both of us. (for one thing, he thought I could bring the
wheelchair to him and he could therefore take himself to the bathroom without
me having to lift him at all). I did,
finally, get him cleaned and settled in bed.
He ate a couple of chicken/salsa sandwiches, and had another glass of
his protein drink. He went on to sleep
(I was almost surprised at that), and slept through the night. Well,
except for a brief spell around 3:00 AM; but he did go on back to sleep
after I told him what time it was.
Around 5:00 he called out, and when I went in he said someone had called
his name. I told him he must have
dreamed that, because there was no one here but me and him .. and I’m pretty
sure none of the cats can say his name.
He went back to sleep.
Unfortunately,
I had to wake him for a pill; and he hasn’t really gone back to sleep since
then. Because of the weather (again),
the CAN will be several hours later – if at all. But he’s wakeful anyway, and “searching for
the keys” again.
People:
The CAN was
here early on Monday; today (Tuesday) I don’t know when or if she’ll get
here. The supply delivery didn’t get
here until close to 5:00 in the afternoon.
We didn’t get all the supplies ordered because some of the boxes were
damanaged. Fortunately I have enough
back up supply.
Emotions:
I guess a
lot of tired and stress has caught up to me.
Last night, and again this morning, I just don’t seem to be able to cope
very well. I’m very weepy and stressed;
and it isn’t helping that this house has so many cold spots I can’t realistically
avoid the kitchen! I know DH and I will
both have a period of adjustment with the room changes; and it’s not helping
that the weather is messing up schedules I should be able to count on, even if
I don’t like them.
I think a
lot of annoyance with people who “claim” to be helping us but in reality only
show up when it’s convenient for them is adding to my stress level. I have a month worth of mail but no one has
time (or interest) for helping me deal with that. I need to look up some things on the
computer, but same issue. The
frustration of not being able to do things for myself is on top of trying to
figure out how to deal with DH on top of
the crazy weather.
I guess at
least part of my whiny mood this morning is because of the CAN (not her
fault). I thought I had a clock set to
get me up .. turned out I ahd at some point accidently unplugged it; I got up
only half an hour later than I wanted, but it still *felt* like I started out
running late. Then after I was up an
showered and dressed, and had taken DH that dratted early pill , the CAN called
to let me know their office wouldn’t open until 10:00. So all the morning rush was for nothing. I would not have expected her to call any
earlier than she did .. I’m not annoyed at her … but the day has started badly
nevertheless.
It’s 9:00 in
the morning, and I took him the regular
9:00 pills. He told me he thought
he would take a nap before he “drives out of here”. I wish I could be more paitnet .. I know he
can’t help where his mind is going. I’m
just not good at this.
I have a
list of things to try to get done (partly just because they need to get done,
and partly because keeping busy helps reduce stress) .. but it’s just hard to
get anything done when I’m so cold.
Maybe I need a nap too!
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