Day 286

Day 286

Monday, March 3, 2014

Physical:

Some days I can check on DH off and on during the morning, and while he stirs a bit he mostly just wants to sleep.  This wasn’t one of those days.  By 10:30 he’d been restless and waking up to the point that I just got him on up.  I sort of suspected how the day would go from there, and wasn’t far off.  In less than 2 hours he wanted to lay down again and take a nap.  One things I guess I should have expected, but didn’t  … since the chair now sits just a few feet from the bed, he decided he could just get up and step over to the bed to lay down.  I caught him before he got to the point of actually trying to get up; and went on and got him to the bed.  In theory, by eliminating the wheelchair step, he’s “easier” to move and therefore I can move him back and forth as he wants.  NOT.  But anyway, he lay down .. and slept for more than 4 hours.

The evening went downhill after that.  He insisted he had to get up and go to the bathroom.  It was like he “backslid” on that issue.  I will skip details, but it was a long frustrating evening for both of us.  (for one thing, he thought I could bring the wheelchair to him and he could therefore take himself to the bathroom without me having to lift him at all).  I did, finally, get him cleaned and settled in bed.  He ate a couple of chicken/salsa sandwiches, and had another glass of his protein drink.  He went on to sleep (I was almost surprised at that), and slept through the night.  Well,  except for a brief spell around 3:00 AM; but he did go on back to sleep after I told him what time it was.  Around 5:00 he called out, and when I went in he said someone had called his name.  I told him he must have dreamed that, because there was no one here but me and him .. and I’m pretty sure none of the cats can say his name.  He went back to sleep.

Unfortunately, I had to wake him for a pill; and he hasn’t really gone back to sleep since then.  Because of the weather (again), the CAN will be several hours later – if at all.  But he’s wakeful anyway, and “searching for the keys” again. 

People:

The CAN was here early on Monday; today (Tuesday) I don’t know when or if she’ll get here.  The supply delivery didn’t get here until close to 5:00 in the afternoon.  We didn’t get all the supplies ordered because some of the boxes were damanaged.  Fortunately I have enough back up supply.

Emotions:

I guess a lot of tired and stress has caught up to me.  Last night, and again this morning, I just don’t seem to be able to cope very well.  I’m very weepy and stressed; and it isn’t helping that this house has so many cold spots I can’t realistically avoid the kitchen!  I know DH and I will both have a period of adjustment with the room changes; and it’s not helping that the weather is messing up schedules I should be able to count on, even if I don’t like them.

I think a lot of annoyance with people who “claim” to be helping us but in reality only show up when it’s convenient for them is adding to my stress level.   I have a month worth of mail but no one has time (or interest) for helping me deal with that.  I need to look up some things on the computer, but same issue.  The frustration of not being able to do things for myself is on top of trying to figure out how to deal with DH  on top of the crazy weather. 

I guess at least part of my whiny mood this morning is because of the CAN (not her fault).  I thought I had a clock set to get me up .. turned out I ahd at some point accidently unplugged it; I got up only half an hour later than I wanted, but it still *felt* like I started out running late.  Then after I was up an showered and dressed, and had taken DH that dratted early pill , the CAN called to let me know their office wouldn’t open until 10:00.  So all the morning rush was for nothing.  I would not have expected her to call any earlier than she did .. I’m not annoyed at her … but the day has started badly nevertheless.

It’s 9:00 in the morning, and I took him the regular  9:00 pills.  He told me he thought he would take a nap before he “drives out of here”.  I wish I could be more paitnet .. I know he can’t help where his mind is going.  I’m just not good at this.

I have a list of things to try to get done (partly just because they need to get done, and partly because keeping busy helps reduce stress) .. but it’s just hard to get anything done when I’m so cold.    Maybe I need a nap too!