Day 54

Day 54

Wednesday, May 22, 2014

This was a somewhat relaxing day of doing not much of anything.  We watched TV shows, I listened to my book some.  The only evening plans were that DGD had her church meeting .. a friend picked her up and DS went to get her after.

DIL and I chatted, watched TV, just relaxed.

It is very odd to have nothing to do, and do even less!  It just feels wrong somehow to be completely lazy; but there’s very little I can do here.  And yet I spend so many days at home doing almost nothing.  The difference is, I guess, that I do my own dishes, do laundry, take care of the cats, and spend more time on the computer (I’m facing the dining room window here .. it makes it hard to see the computer, so I’ve not even been turning it on as much as I would at home) 

There is the banquet tonight, and then I head home tomorrow.  I really have the weekend and part of Monday to get ready to head out again.  I am very concerned about the next trip, but I can’t do anything about it (I even asked TGF if she could help … but of course, no way DSS could handle her boys).  I’m worried about DIL doing so much driving.  Her health is precarious; when she’s feeling OK, driving is fine.  But if she’s not, it could be risky.  She has the 2 hour drive to my house on Monday .. and she can take her time, stop if she needs to.  Then it’s another 3 hours on to our destination.  We’ve made plans to go the long way around and take a break to visit my BFF (whom I haven’t seen in around 8 to 10 years).  But it’s still a lot of driving, and I can’t help.  I hate that!  TGF can’t because DSS, as I said, wouldn’t be able to deal with getting her boys home from school on Tuesday and back and forth on Wednesday.  Since they’re in testing, they can’t just skip.  And DS cannot go because he has to deal with an audit at his job that no one else seems able to handle.  Plus their kids also in finals.  It’s all very frustrating.  DIL had to wait 3 months for this appointment, and is not willing to postpone .. and I don’t blame her!  She’s been having health issues long enough, she needs answers and solutions!   So, I guess we’re just going to have to do the best we can .. stop and take breaks as often as needed.  But then she’ll have the entire drive home by herself.  She will likely make several stops, including possibly overnight at my house if needed.  It’s still an awful not of driving alone.It’s too bad the appointment couldn’t have been just a few weeks later; but we will just have to figure out how to deal with what is.

Today, at least, will be a bit lazy.  DIL has errands to run; I will get showered and dressed for tonight, and just continue on my book.

I know it’s not my fault .. I wish I could stop feeling guilty for not being able to help!!