Day 34

Day 34

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

This (Wednesday) was a better day.  I’m not stupid enough to think I will have “good” days from now on .. but it’s encouraging to believe that the “bad” days will be farther apart.  We did not have the severe storms like yesterday;; but it did thunder and rain off and on until very late n the afternoon. The sun did not come out, but the last hour or so of daylight was brighter.

I can’t say I “did” a lot.  But I’m not on a time clock either.  I finally finished putting up all of the laundry I’ve gotten done.  And my “big” accomplishment was switching area rugs, including a lot of vacuuming.

I made a list of random things I want to get done, and will just check them off as I get to them .. no particular order or time frame.

I sent out a lot of emails; and I got answers to most of them, so I didn’t feel too far “’out of touch”.  A lady from hospice bereavement called to “check on me”.  I am unlikely to take advantage of their services … but then, I could change my mind.  It will be available for up to 13 months.  If I get a spell of being really down, I can call.  But chances are, I’d turn to family first.  I’m not ruling out anything.

A friend called and we had a nice long chat.  And, TGF called in the evening and we had a short chat.  And, almost forgot, SIL called in the afternoon.  She apologized for not coming over .. but I had not expected her to in bad weather.  Perhaps today (Thursday).

All in all, even though I never actually saw a single person, I didn’t feel so alone.  And considering it was a gloomy darkish day, I felt like that as an accomplishment!

This morning DSS is coming by to pick up some trash that got left (in the outside cans).  I got on up and dressed early, so if he has time he can come in.  Since I had the door open, I decided to go on and feed the cats.  Now I’m so frustrated … I may have to stop feeding the outside cats (they were originally strays, born under the porch).  That just breaks my heart.  But there is no possible way to feed them outside because of those dratted dogs.  I tried feeding them in the back hall … but they insist on darting past me into the house.  Apparently the ONLY way I can do it is to get them in to eat … but then go the long way around to open the back door from outside to let them back out.  Meantime, for now, one (or two, not even sure) are in the den.  They’ve bustd out the screen part of the door (OK, not “out”, but pulled it loose from the bottom … enough they can go through it), so I raised the glass and shut the kitchen door.  I’m hoping that they’ll get brave enough to come out of hiding, discoverr the door, and go on out.  I can’t figure out why they do it anyway … they don’t seem to actually want to be in the house.  I know, I know .. curiosity and all that.  Still.

Meantime, I have to keep the kitchen door shut so they don’t try to run in the other direction and get in the house.  I’ve blocked their “escape route”; and if one gets in and goes to the front (porch) door, I can’t open it for them because when I come near they run away again.  It is SO frustrating.

I don’t know what I’m going to do today.  I think I will do one load of laundry.  I’m trying hard to wait until I have a full load, so not waste water and electricity.  Today I have enough (by throwing in towels too .. can’t stand having them lay around damp, and it would take a whole week to accumulate enough by myself for a load).  Dishes are done (very few of them for just myself; but that will have to change, because I have to figure out a way to cook for myself .. the frozen dinners are going to be much too expensive to keep getting). 

I want to change the table setting, so will probably iron a tablecloth to use.  I need to pack up the Easter decorations; but I don’t really want to change over to “summery” quite yet, so  I won’t change anything but the candles that have bunnies on them.  Everything else is spring.  I hate that I can’t change the tree, but would need help.  And I quit turning on the lights to save on the electric  .. and I just hate that, I miss seeing my pretty tree.  Maybe I’ll get someone to help me reset the timer so it will be on for at least a little while in the evening.  In fact, if my SIL does come over today, maybe I’ll get her to help me ut more of the pastel (spring) balls on the tree.

I need to get a few things from upstairs; but maybe it’s a bit early to bring down my suitcase! 

I just heard the school bus, so it’s close to 8:00.  I think DSS will be here soon.  And after he goes, I will finish listening to a book; and then figure out what I’ll do today.