Day 51

Day 51

Sunday, May 18, 2014

The day was a mostly good day, with one small episode of a disappointment that I should not have let bother me.  I guess it just caught me off guard.

I got up at for me a “normal” time, around 5:30.  But I did get on u and get busy.  By the time DS (and DIL and DGD) got here, I had vacuumed, washed and put away all dishes (even lunch), washed and put up all laundry, and had every bit of trash bagged (not that the bagged trash means very much .. it’s been over 2 weeks at least since anyone bothered to come pick it up for me.  I wonder if I’m supposed to pile it in a wheelbarrow and walk it to the dump?)  Anyway, I got everything gathered together that I needed to bring, even a few things I had forgotten before. I was completely packed and ready to go by around 1:00 .. and then just waited!  Well, really, I don’t do “wait” very well.  I watched some boring HGTV; I carried on an email conversation with my BFF; and I paced a lot.

I had been hoping for some visits that I now have come to believe probably aren’t going to happen.  I should not let myself worry about it … it’s not like this was something “normal” in my life anyway.  I don’t “fit in” anywhere.  Almost everyone is in pairs, and I’m not.  It’s just a fact of life, and I really am trying to adjust.

I had thought I’d be home most of May .. but as I began to realize things I hoped for weren’t going to happen, and as I got offered additional opportunities .. well, why not!  I’ll admit, staying in DS’s house during the day can be boring.  I can’t watch TV (they don’t get actual TV, and I can’t even begin to read the Netflix menu .. and that’s even if I could figure out the remote.  I seem to be a bit “technically).  I can  challenged”.  Or something).  I can set up the computer; but it’s a little awkward .. and not all that much email any more anyway.  Which is fine, since it’s hard to read …  but I keep checking anyway. J  I have my kindle; and just found out last night that I have a credit with Audible for a Mother’s Day gift .. so I have enough in my account to get at least 2 more books.  And when you buy books, they give you credits .. so I will be able to get a few more books.  So if I am careful to spread my reading out … I could have enough books to last a couple of months.  Or weeks.

It’s the time here that does me in on books.  DIL had an appointment, which leaves me here alone for several hours … nothing to do but listen to a book.

I miss my cats.  I feel a little guilty leaving them for such long stretches at a time.  But I’m not going to pass up opportunities just to stay home with them.  Cats, after all, are not inclined to welcome me at the door!  Sometimes I think I’d like a dog; but that would create many more problems I guess.  And I wouldn’t be able to make up my mind about a big dog (I’d love a golden!) or a small dog (the cats get along fine with a dog their own size).

Well, that’s all something for another day.  For now I will see if I can find anything to eat, and get out the kindle.