Day 40

Day 40

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

It seems that although there really are times I like my solitude, for the most part I function better on the days I have “human contact”.  That is a little disturbing to realize about myself, because it’s not at all realistic.  I live totally in the middle of nowhere; people have their own lives to deal with, and can’t be running out here all the time just because I “feel lonely”.  I know it’s something I have to get used to.  In some ways I already am … but  it’s different now.  Instead of talking to DH .. whether he could hear me or not (and frequently had no idea what I was talking about … but then, that’s been going on most of the time we were married anyway), I talk to the cats .. or the TV … or the computer … or whatever inanimate object happens to be in front of me.  Most of the time they don’t respond (although occasionally the cats will give me *that look*).

Yesterday (Wednesday)  didn’t turn out as I expected .. though of course I should know by now not to “expect” anything!  I had been told DSS was coming over.  It was after 3:00 in the afternoon before he called, which meant most of the day I was afraid to get started on something since I didn’t know when he was coming over (and knew I needed to ask him to take me to get my eye drops refilled).    He called to see if I was at home (where else would I be??).  He did come over, and he told me a bit about his trip to FL.  He wasn’t sure what he was supposed to get; we decided that since the local dump is closed on Wednesday, he couldn’t get the trash.  And since he didn’t bring the trailer yet, he couldn’t get the metal stuff  to sell for scrap (I told him there’s a lot he can take, but he has to split with me whatever he makes on it.  I doubt he will though).  So in the end he decided to go on and get some of the big items from the house.  It was so near 4:00 that he called TGF and asked her to come on over here to help loading things. 

She came after picking up the boys.  The first thing we did was all 5 of us pile in the car to take me to get the eye drops.   Then we came back, and he got the big cabinet loaded.  Actually, he made the boys do that.  They whined, of course; but when they realized they actually could do it, they strutted like peacocks!  They also loaded a small a/c unit that I hadn’t used in years and knew I didn’t need. 

The large cabinet took up most of the truck, so not much else went this trip.  There are still a lot of big items I’m waiting to have out of the way.  He did say he would bring back some large totes he had previously emptied, and will take all the random stuff that’s on the card tables, and will sort it at home.  That will make a big different in my being able to get things figured out here. 

In the evening I got “brave” and made some hamburger helper for supper.  In the first place, cooking hamburger is tricky since I can’t actually see if it’s done.  I tend to burn it a bit, since I go a lot by smell.  I had found a box of helper; but of course I can’t read the directions.  So, I improvised, based on previous experience.  I added some hot water, then dumped in the ingredients.  I put the lid on, turned the heat down (or at least tried to .. also extremely difficult when you can’t see the flame!), and set a timer for as long as I knew it should take pasta to cook.  It turned out OK;  and I have enough for at least 2 more meals (another downside – just makes way too much for just one).

I think all the things I’ve *expected* are taken care of .. bills paid, refills done, donations gone.  I don’t know when DSS will get more stuff … not before next week I’m sure.  With TGF’s dad coming tomorrow, and her graduation this weekend, it’s going to be a busy time.   But, with it staying light so much later now, he may come after work an evening or two to get stuff.  Maybe.

Anyway, hopefully today I will get busy enough to not mope around.  I’ve been putting off mopping and vacuuming for any number of reasons .. and I’ve used them all up now.

It’s going to be a very hot day, so I better go on and get busy this morning!