Day 38

Day 38

Monday, May , 2014

This was a fairly quiet ordinary day.  I exchanged emails with several people; and hung up on a telemarketer call (a recording).  That was my extent of contact.  Since I slept late, I was a bit draggy all day, no energy at all.  But I did managed to accomplish a few things.  I didn’t read … I’ve been reading too fast, and will run out of books!  I have 2 more that I know of, and there might be 1 or 2 more .. I can’t remember for sure.  I can’t read the titles, so I just touch the “blobs” and listen to see if it’s something I’ve already “read” or not.  I do have a $10 coupon for one more this month.

So, I watched my regular daytime TV junk in between small spurts of energy.

Somehow I just think I’m going to feel better once the accumulated donation stuff is gone.  It should be picked up sometime today.  There are still a few big items that  will be going to new homes, but for one reason or another I get to “store” them for now.

On days like this (Monday) I wonder why I’m bothering to write daily.  I’m going through a bit of a “blank” spell.  I just feel tired .. not sad, not happy.  Lonely at times, but that’s just something I need to get used to.  I should have already by now.  And there are days when I like my solitude.  I can do what I want … stay in pajamas until noon; eat what I want when I feel hungry;   I can stay up late if I want to .. although I realize my body doesn’t particularly like to do that!  I’d love to be able to sleep late, but I just keep waking up. 

I don’t have anything planned for today, except perhaps water the plants.  If the truck comes early enough, maybe this afternoon I’ll finish exchanging candles; otherwise I’ll just sit around and wait.

The “extra” cat is still in the house.  Last night I ate a nuked meatloaf, and dropped the plastic dish on the floor as I often do for Butter to lick it.  He doesn’t like “people food” but does love gravy or sauce.  Later, to my surprise, the “extra” cat was right beside my chair working on what was left on that dish.  He’s not hungry .. since he’s been free to roam the house, he has access to the cat food.  I might have been able to reach down and get him … but most likely if I’d tried he’d have bolted.  As it was, as soon as I moved he streaked off.  I do have a plan, of sorts.  But it would take tricky timing.  First I need to leave the door to the back bedroom open.  I think he’d go in there, because he still thinks it’s an escape route.  But I’d have to do it while the other cats are in the back hall, and shut Maggie in the guest room.  Then I can shut the bedroom door, and move the board blocking the hole.  I think the cat would go on out by himself.  If I do it any other time, the other cats would come in.  And the whole thing would depend on my getting him to go into the room at the right time.  This really is getting ridiculous.  It’s stupid to have that cat roaming the house, but terrified to let me near it!

It’s still early, but daylight.  I guess I’ll go on and get showered and start the day.