Day 39

Day 39

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

This was a better day; and that in itself is a bit worrisome.  It was better because I had more “human contact”.  I exchanged emails with family members, and it always feels better to be in touch.  The guys from Habitat came by around midday, and took all the stuff I had gathered up for them.  They were very nice and polite; and said they’d gladly come back if I decide I want them to pick up anything else (thinking about one large chair).  In the afternoon my SIL came over for a brief visit. And later in the evening TGF called to let me know DSS is home from his trip, and to let me know travel arrangements for her graduation on Saturday.

In between various stuff happening, I sort of paced a bit, trying to decide what I want to do once all the stuff has been taken away that various people want.  I have a lot of stuff that I thought some people wanted, but now I’m not sure because I haven’t heard from them.  I know everyone (else) has very busy lives.  But it is a bit frustrating to sit here so much of the time alone .. but yet, when I do make any plans, I get told I’m too hard to get up with.  Well, that’s disappointing.  But if I get the opportunity to go somewhere, do something, and don’t have other plans, then I will go ahead.  I have more than enough time to sit here alone; I’m not going to pass up the chance to get out a bit just because someone *might* call or come by.

I did pay my gas and electric bills, so that was an accomplishment.  The rent was mailed.  Everything else is auto-draft or whatever it’s called.  For now it’s all covered, and I only have to worry about paying the balance to the funeral home.  I don’t know how the rest of the summer will be … I know it is going to be very hard to keep the electric bill down when the temps start going into the 90s or above .. like tomorrow is supposed to be.  I can stand it warm, never cared for the a/c to be too cold.  But will I be able to just use fans and not turn on the a/c?  I doubt it, but may not have the choice.  I’ll just have to wait and see how things go.

I feel like I must have done something else yesterday (Tuesday) .. but I don’t know what.  But at least there was enough going on to not have soggy moments.  Well, except when SIL was here.  She had a spell of talking about her big brother, and we both got weepy; but that’s not a bad thing really. 

In my email yesterday I got a message from Duke which sort of shocked me.  A lady introduced herself as the new transplant team coordinator.  She had noticed that they had not seen DH since 2013, was wondering how he was doing and could they schedule a follow up appointment.  I was tempted to ask her if she wanted me to bring in his ashes.  But, I had to remind myself .. if she was new, she had no way of knowing that someone else had not properly updated his records.  I had sent an email to the previous coordinator letting him know DH had passed away and to close his file.  Obviously he didn’t do that; the new lady apologized and said she would close the file.

I got to sleep fairly early, but didn’t sleep well.  The “extra” cat is really still a kitten .. and around 2:00 in the morning decided it was OK to play with the tree.  Maggie never really showed a lot of interest; and Butter is only interested in knocking an ornament off (and only occasionally) to play with.   I had to get up to scare him away from the tree.  I did get back to sleep; but it was very warm so I didn’t sleep as well as I usually do.  The fan in the living room doesn’t have a “high” speed (actually, it only has one speed).  I may consider getting a small fan to use when the temps go so high.  I have a nice table top size fan that isn’t being used anywhere.  We pretty much gave away most of the floor standing fans.  But I’ll figure it out as I go. 

TGF said DSS would come by today.  He had told me before he left that he’d come by this week to get the junk out of the yard and take to the dump.  But, the dump isn’t open today (though I think the landfill might be open).  In any case, if he comes it will be after taking the boys to school, so could be any time in the next hour or so.   I’m up and dressed, the litter boxes changed, the cats fed.  I need to get more coffee and get the rest of the trash bagged up.

After DSS comes and goes, perhaps today will be the day I finally clean the kitchen floor!