Day 120

Day 120

Saturday, July 26, 2014

I did not get as much done as I had hoped, but I am still chipping away at bits and pieces.  I did combine some thngs into the larger boxes.  They’re awfully heavy .. but I don’t see any way to pack such big boxes without their getting heavy.  I would presume they would be meant to be moved with hand trucks.  (and even if I ever get my little one back, it might not be strong enough). It’s also betting to be more and more of an issue what to do with the boxes.  It seems here in my computer/sewing room is a good place as the majority of things are packed, especially the sewing area.  In the computer area, I have one more drawer of paper stuff I need to sort; but after that, it’s primarily down to things to not pack until way closer to moving day.

I got up a little early, and rested a lot anyway; even took a brief afternoon nap with Maggie.  I could not stay awake for evening TV as usual.  Last night I woke during the night, and seemed like I had a hard time getting back to sleep .. sort of restless.  I vaguely feel like I was dreaming a lot, though only fragments remain in my head.  It’s like people I’ve known in the past (anywhere from 5 to 50 years past) keep “visiting” me  I woke a little after 5:00, again after 6:00; but didn’t actually get up until 7:00, which *feels* late!  It’s a gray morning so far, and supposed to be extremely hot today.  I’m having a hard time getting the day started. 

Yesterday seemed odd, the first day in a week that I didn’t see a single person; and only talked to DN (and only because her computer is temporarily out of commission).  I’m used to it, and don’t mind up to a point.  But it just seemed strange after such a busy week.

TGF went with a friend to DC to pick up a son who had been visiting his dad.  DSS went to GA to visit his older son while taking the younger one home.  I have no idea if everyone got where they were supposed to be, as it never occurs to anyone to communicate with me.  I guess I’d hear if something went wrong.

I didn’t manage to cross anything off my list yesterday.  A few things are very close (for example, I can’t check off getting things off this room’s walls until I take down a bulletin board and peel off  a word sticker .. and won’t get the sticker until last minute, it will go on the wall in my bedroom).  Oh, and I won’t take the clock down until the last minute either.

I had the idea that I could tape together 3 or 4 boxes, and then start tackling the back area.  There’s 2 cabinets and a big closet that have not been dealt with at all.  One cabinet has my Christmas china which has to go into storage because DN has some.  As usual, anything she already has, I’m told “we” don’t need to not to bring to the apartment.  Very depressing that I don’t feel like it’s OK for me to say “I’d rather use mine than yours”, but that’s just the way it is.   I suppose the compromise is that while it makes me sad, it does not (for the most part) make me angry; so it’s just not worth being an issue.  Except the issue now has become that I don’t know if I’ll need a storage unit right away or not, and not sure how much time I will have to decide.  (if the house deal works out, I can wait until Sept. and get a small unit .. I can move the things that I already know will be in storage “long term”, and gradually move other things from upstairs as I go through them).  I can’t actually afford a really big unit; and apparently I’m expected to just get a small unit and throw away things without ever taking the time to actually go through them and at least pick out special items.

Well, no use getting off on that tangent.  At least I don’t have to deal with it today.

At one time (late last week, maybe even Friday but I don’t remember for sure) TGF mentioned her BFF coming over with her today (Sunday) and helping pack.  I’ve not heard another word about it, and as I said above, no idea when TGF got in yesterday.  So nothing much I can do but work on what I can, and wait and see.  There’s a lot more yardsale stuff that needs to be boxed.  I’ve sort of put off bothering (only partly because up until Thursday I didn’t have boxes anyway) but also because they need to be priced if we’re going to have another yardsale.  I strongly suspect TGF has gotten doing this in her yard into her mind and doesn’t want to bother with calling a dealer.  That doesn’t make sense to me either … it would be a lot more work on her to have to take carloads of stuff to her house every day … and where in the world would it be until the weekend?  Her house is already pretty much full; and it can’t sit outside because not only is there a chance of storms early in the week, but in her neighborhood I’d be afraid of things being “taken”.  She says it’s safe.  I still think it’s only a block from “downtown”.

Anyway, it seems I have no say in the matter, and I’m the one who needs to try to raise cash.  So I’ll just go along with whatever.  Meantime, until I hear otherwise (if she shows up today), I’ll try to be more productive today.   

For now, it’s already 8:00.  I need to do eye drops, get a shower, feed the cats, put yesterday’s laundry away (catching up various table covers, used sheets, etc as well as daily laundry).  My “to do” list keeps getting longer as I think of things that must be done … I need to try to cross off at least 3 or 4 items today!