Day 107

Day 107

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Yesterday was a fairly productive day.  It was quiet .. the only communication I had other than electronic (and not a lot of that) was a brief phone call from DS.  I did not expect to hear from anyone, so I wasn’t  “upset”; but it did feel alone at times.  The bottom line is that although TGF has helped deal with the yardsale, and DIL has helped with paperwork and a lot of important issues (like making phone calls) .. when it comes to actually deciding and packing, I’m on my own.  I’ve been told a lot of things I can or can’t take with me, but that doesn’t really help (it just makes me depressed .. I like my whole life worth of things is suddenly trash and I should just walk away from it all in favor of someone else’s things.  That’s making it even harder to determine what to pack, what to store, what to let go of.

Nevertheless, I did have a productive day.  My basic goal was to get the back bedroom organized.  So now all the yardsale stuff is mainly in one corner, with a few bags in the other corner, along the far wall.  In one front corner I’m iling boxes to move.  The other corner is for things I’ll need to put in storage.  The only thing still in the room other than that stuff is one short sofa.  I have it turned so the back of it “contains” the yardsale pile .. also made it so it’s no longer covering the a/c grate.  Also, all pictures are down off the walls and distributed. 

I emptied out a wall cabinet in the bathroom.  I didn’t realize until I started on it, but it hasn’t been touched (maybe not even opened) since DH passed away.  So it was a little sad.  But since he had not actually set foot in the room for many months, it wasn’t as bad as it might have been.  In any case, the cabinet is empty.  The things worth keeping are packed, and the rest either thrown away (too old) or put aside to see if any of TGF’s guys can use any of it .

I did have one “bad” episode.  I was taking down necklaces that have been hanging from a towel bar.  One of them I apparently pulled too hard, and it broke.  It was tiny beads, like pearls only not “real”.  I can’t see well enough to be sure, but I *think* it might be one my father gave me many  (MANY) years ago.  The tiny beads went everywhere (not all of them, but a fairly significant amount) .. there’s no way I’ll ever be able to find them, and I seriously doubt the necklace if really fixable anyway.   I was already hot and tired, so I had a seriously weepy spell.  Every now and then I step on a bead and pick it up.  I’ll just have to wait until someone has time to help me try to gather up the ones all over the bathroom counter (a lot are at least “contained” on a mirror tray).

A few more things out of the dining room got packed, but only where I needed to “fill in” a box.

Apparently the TV (Dish) has changed it’s programming, so I no longer get a few of my “standby” channels.  No more food channels, no more GHTV.  It seems the only things I have now are the major networks, the travel channel, and ION.   So if I didn’t want sports or travel, my only other choice was “Leverage” all afternoon.  Well, that was a good thing, because it didn’t hold my interest; so I mostly only took short breaks and kept at it.  Ironically, once news finally came on … I dozed off.     And I had a hard time staying awake for any evening TV … must be left over tired from Saturday, as well as heat.

I have no idea how today will go .. and, of course, that drives me crazy.  TGF said she would take me to town (but only because she wants to borrow some $$ … she will be on a school related trip all week.  She has to buy her own meals but will be reimbursed later.  She leaves tonight, and DSS doesn’t get paid until tomorrow evening.  I will loan her some .. but if it isn’t enough, she’ll have to find someone else for more).  I have trash to take to the dump, and if it doesn’t go today it will sit there all week.  DIL is also out of town this week.  And since SIL is pretty unreliable, it may be a very lonely week.  But later in the week it’s supposed to get cooler, so I’m hoping to be productive anyway.  DS has just had a new neighbor move in, so boxes are available (his call was to ask how many I need).  But I don’t know when I’ll get those.  I did find more boxes I didn’t know I had while organizing the back room .. they had been shoved into a far corner.  So I can keep going a little while anyway.

I also don’t know when the girl who’s taking Butter will come.  She wasn’t able to come Saturday, so said it would be today or tomorrow; probably in the morning.    I’ll just have to hope her time and TGF don’t overlap (but I did give her my phone #).

I plan to work in the guest room today.  I need (again) to get it organized; and I hope to go on and pack up a lot of odds and ends (and decide where they go),. Other than my dresser, there’s no reason for anything but empty furniture pieces to be left in the room.  I have to keep reminding myself I will only have one (smaller) dresser and I can’t take all the photos and other items I now have on 2 dressers.  It’s so hard to choose.

Since I’m in “wait mode” today, I’m afraid I might not get much done … I tend to pace a lot when I expect something to happen without knowing when.  But I need to go on now and get the day started, so whatever happens I’ll be ready.  Well except for the fact that I completely forgot and let Butter out.  As soon as I’m dressed I’ll start trying to get him back in (in case the girl comes for hm).  I know if people or cars  come here that he doesn’t recognize, he won’t come out of hiding.  That would be embarrassing!