Day 112
Friday, July 18, 2014
The day went about as I expected .. quiet and semi
productive. I’m getting a little
frustrated in that I only seem to be moving things around. That’s a waste of energy I think; but I have
to have things a little organized so I can figure out what I need to be doing.
I’m still flitting from one thing to another, but I guess it’s
OK as long as I get something done in each area. One bathroom drawer is emptied, and the
things I need to keep (not much!) in one place.
But the other 2 drawers will be harder to sort.
I have emptied all the drawers in the big dresser I use in
the dining room … batteries, tape, etc.
The things are all sorted into large baggies, but I don’t want to put
them in a box yet. I might need to use
tape or batteries; and I suspect I will be adding extension cords to the bags.
The biggest thing I accomplished was to finally (sadness)
dismantle the big white tree. I don’t
have anything big enough to put it in, so it’s behind a chair in the den for
now. The empty corner gave me a single
place to start stacking books to be donated.
I have gone through 3 different places where books were
congregated. People go through them, but
they stay there, and I can’t tell. So
from now on everything will go into the corner.
Actually, if anyone plans to go through any more, they better do it soon
(as in DSS, so I will let him know). I
know TGF said she wanted some, but kept putting off picking them out or putting
what she wanted in one place. I’ve put
aside some I *think* she wanted (keeping in mind it’s very hard to determine
what they are .. in some cases, I just had to guess). I’ve had some help sorting books, but at the
time didn’t have a good place to put them; and mostly no one has had time to do
that. There are a LOT of books … and
this is after a very great many of them have gone out the door. And I’m embarrassed to admit how many I put
aside to keep. Mostly they are
cookbooks, and I use the excuse that DN and I can go tho=rough them for
interesting recipes to try.
I have 3 smallish stacks on the table to be sorted, and 2
more shelves on a bookcase under the stairs.
I haven’t tackled the ones in the front hall, most were DH’s. DSS took a lot, but has hinted that he wants
to go through them again.
I have no more books on my Kindle to read. TV last night was boring reruns. And I can’t find the right place on the
Kindle for videos (I know I have some movies stored on it … just couldn’t find
them. Drat!) So I fell asleep too early out of sheer
exhaustion and boredom. Naturally, I
woke around 3:00. Maggie helped with
that .. she was bumping something and I couldn’t tell what (most of “her”
places have been cleared). It finally
got to me enough to get up … and found her on one of the built in desk
shelves. I moved her (she wasn’t very
pleased, but didn’t “argue”). And then
for some reason started clearing the top of the desk. I pushed everything on the shelf to the back
and sides; and put a few things from the desk there. The rest got sorted, some to trash and some
to a plastic bin a small things I can’t identify. I think the only things left on the desk now
are the phone, a stack of notebooks (related to moving), and a pile of photo
albums. Oh, and 6 small flashlights. I’ve always tried to have one of those easily
available in every room in case of power going out .. which it has always done
at odd random times here, not necessarily during a storm. But over the years they’ve gotten moved
around, or the children played with them and left them just anywhere, etc. So as I’ve come across them I’ve put them all
in one place. Since I’m used to moving around in the dark, I
figure I can find one if I need it easily enough. And I know I have enough for one for each
room in the apartment.
Anyway, at some point I did finally go back to sleep; and
then didn’t get up until around 7:00, and feeling a bit groggy. Interrupted sleep does not bode well for a
productive day .. and add in that it’s a completely gray day. Supposedly very little chance of rain, and
cooler. But gray all the same, meaning a
lack of light for me. Just because I’m
used to the dark doesn’t mean I like it!!
Soone enough (hopefully years yet, but I don’t know) my world will be
completely dark. I crave all the light I
can get .. and yet, without overly bright direct light. I know, it doesn’t make sense. I never claimed to “make sense”!
My SIL called last night.
She is home and doing well enough.
She did not get stents after all .. her blockage was in a “Y” area, so
it was ballooned out instead, and her meds strength doubled.
TGF was due home sometime last night from her trip. I’ve not heard a word from her, so no idea
what’s going on. I expect I’ll hear from
her eventually … to do laundry if nothing else.
But possibly not until Monday.
I do hear from DN pretty much every day. But since I’m struggling with the sorting and
packing while she is doing a lot of the more fun planning, it’s a little
depressing. I keep reminding myself of
all the benefits of the move. But it’s
still frustrating and discouraging to not know what I can or can’t do .. and
also to be *told* I can’t do this or that, or can’t bring this or that.
I guess it’s just as well I don’t have too much help with
this sorting and packing process. I’m
sure I will end up with way too much stuff, and have to put a lot into
storage. I just have no way of knowing
until I’m actually there. I have this
fear that people are treating me like visually impaired equals stupid. If they were to “help” me, I believe things I
treasure would be just thrown away. And
I’d end up in a room with my chair, my dresser, a TV, and little else. There has to be a middle ground, and I feel
very much on my own to find it.
It’s not helping that my mental image of the apartment keeps
shrinking! I can’t locate the one
picture I’ve been sent (not ours, but a similar one). And my mind keeps making it smaller. I also have a depressing feeling that I won’t
have any say not only about what I’m “allowed” to have but how it all gets
arranged. I don’t especially care if
someone who is familiar with the size and layout makes basic decisions. But I do have a few things I care about. I hope I get a chance to express those, but I
just don’t know what will happen.
Because of sleeping later than usual, the whole morning is
slightly “out of focus”. I have washed
dishes and fed cats .. and that’s all. I
should go get a shower and get dressed and get busy. Perhaps I will .. soon.
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