Day 114

Day 114

Sunday, July 20, 2014

It was another busy and faintly lonely day.  I thought I had gotten better about that .. but it’s harder when I’m tired.  As much as I do like my independence .. and often my solitude … I will also be glad to be where I at least have choices.  I suppose I *could* call someone and say “I’m lonely, come over” .. but then I come across wimpy and whiny.  I really need to get away from that.   I will get a better handle on my own limitations when I can go out and seek people, even walk to the library or a shop for a coffee.   I won’t be stranded at home where I become an inconvenience.

I believe part of my issue is that as I get into sorting and cleaning more areas, I’m intruding into places that haven’t been touched (because there was no reason) for a long time.  Maybe even years.  And that means a lot of ..**gasp** .. Dust!!  I’m allergic to dust.  I know, it’s a very common allergin.  That doesn’t make me any less uncomfortable!  I get coughing to the point of choking, sniffling, sneezy, itchy watery eyes (something I for sue don’t need!), and sometimes headachy.  All of these tend to slow me down. Well, and the fact that I’m quickly running out of boxes. I’m down to I think 5, and they’re all smallish. The up side of smaller boxes is that they don’t get overly heavy.  The downside is that it just takes so many more of them (and that is one reason why my pile of packed boxes looks overwhelming … the packing material takes up a lot of space!).  Also, I’m coming across more and more items that just won’t fit!

I made a list of things to do (did I say this yesterday?  I think so), but today I edited the list.  I decided that if I add in non-packing or cleaning things, and all the days, perhaps the list will become less intimidating because I can cross off more than one thing on some of those days.  Yes, I know, I could cross them off anyway.  I never claimed to make sense.  But this is what works for me.

What I didn’t put on the list but frequently eats into my time is straightening up areas.  Yesterday the den was driving me crazy (yes, I know, short trip).  I cringed to walk through it .. and a few nights from now I will need to sleep in there.  Unacceptable!  So I had to take the time and energy to get it as neat as possible again. 

It’s also a little discouraging to look around .. nearly every room ..and see so very much still to deal with.  A lot of what I’ve accomplished so far doesn’t show .. empty cabinets and drawers, etc.

I had a long conversation with TGF late in the afternoon/early evening.  She had a lot to tell me about that had nothing to do with packing (her trip, and some issues dealing with her boys).  I, on the other hand, had little to say except whine about what I need. 

Anyway, TGF said she’d come today, and will try to look for boxes.  Even without them, there are a lot of things I’ll need hel with.  She’s already telling me how busy this week will be, so clearly all the books will not get to the library yet.  But, if we can find time while DGS15 is here (he goes home Saturday), he would be a big help transporting stacks of books to and from the car.  Then again, it looks to be a rainy day, so maybe not.  I can’t do anything about it either way, so just have to deal with them in the way until they aren’t.  I will have to use 1 or 2 of the remaining boxes to get the additional yardsale items priced and contained.  They are taking over the room .. which is a good thing, because after the yardsale 95% of what’s unsold will not come back here; it will be donated.  There are a few (very few) things that I will give up stressing about and put in a consignment shop. 

I also have a lot of things piled on the table that I need help sorting.  I emptied all the drawers and shelves from the built-in desk.  A large part of stuff went into the trash.  But what was left went into plastic shoe boxes .. so not taking a lot of space, but still needing sorted.  At least I can sit down with someone to go through it. 

I started calculating time frames.  I already know there are 34 days until moving day (and the checks still haven’t cleared the bank).  But I have to look at what has to happen when within that time frame.  I need to make decisions (based on no experience at all, because DH always handled that; and besides, we’ve always used a truck, not a trailer, and I don’t know if there’s a difference in determinging size needed) and reserve a trailer.  TGF told me last night that DSS’s friend will likely help, with a big truck and trailer (open) .. possibly he can take the things that need to go to storage and eliminate needing a second trailer on another day.  So I also have to check the storage information.  That may be something that can be done today .. DSis sent me a link, and no one yet has had time to sit down and look it up.  The next (and final) yardsale can’t be any later than 2 ½ weeks from now, because after that weekend TGF will be at work and not able to come get everything to get it set up (plus getting out very early on a Saturday might be an issue right after ending summer “vacation” and having to get up for work every weekday morning!). 

I have to figure out when to cancel the utilities here.  I *should* get an equipment refund for the internet satellite .. but I have no idea how they are about actually doing that (or when).  But electric and Dish have to be stopped.  Will Dish come get their satellite and receivers, or is that something else I have to figure out how to deal with? Before I move I will have to figure out about getting my eye drops refilled.  I’d prefer to stay with the same pharmacy chain (for one thing, I wouldn’t need to get new Rxs); but it’s been pointed out to me … by people who can get in a car and go where ever they please … that a different pharmacy is in walking distance.  It *feels* like no one wants to bother making sure I can get the right bus to go to the nearest one of the same chain.  The refills fall due around the beginning of a month .. which means they will be needed  in less than 2 weeks after I move.  So it must be settled by then.  Actually, I have to decide (do I stand firm about riding a bus, or do I give in to pressure and change pharmacies?) by my next appointment, because if I change I’ll need brand new Rxs.  And that *could* be an issue, because as of that appointment they will be transferring my care to a closer office; and the doctor might prefer that the doctor taking over my care be the one to write new Rxs.  I think I just answered my own question.  I stay with my current pharmacy chain at least until after seeing a new doctor.

I don’t think I’ll hear from SIL today since it looks to be a rainy day.  I’m giving her some small bookcases (to hold all the books I gave her! LOL), but she won’t want to get them until it clears. 

My thoughts are all scattered this morning .. seems I don’t even finish one thought before I’m off on a tanget about something else.  I’m trying to keep up with it all, but so frustrating.  Calendars are no longer helpful.  I do have a big one that is a white board .. but I can’t find the dry erase marker.  Although I do now know that nail polish remover will take “magic marker” off a white board! 

I don’t know what time anything will happen today, though for sure not “early”.  TGF has something or other to take care of before coming here; and every since school got out she doesn’t get here early anyway.  Just the same, I guess I need to get showered and dressed earlier than I have been, and get the day going.  Oh yeah, and it’s Monday .. newsletter time.  I really need to get myself better organized this morning!