Day 117

Day 117

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

This was a bit of an odd day.  It was not as productive as I would have hoped; but then again, a lot of things got done that I did need help with … and there was really little else I could do until getting boxes.

I woke up long before DN and DGS, of course.  However, once they got up, I still didn’t really get moving.  It felt like days of rushing caught up, I just felt tired all day.  My joints were achy, although taking some Aleve did help that.  I think the cumulative effect of all the dust is bothering me; but I’ll just have to push myself to deal with that and keep gong.

Anyway,  as I had been cleaning out various drawers and shelves and cabinets I had been putting random small objects into small plastic boxes.  So we sat down and went through all but one of those (keeping one to continue to use for now).  A great deal of random junk was condensed to manageable  sizes .. and they each were able to find a few things to keep as well. 

By mid afternoon DN and DGS were getting bored, so they decided to walk to a nearby country store.  They were almost back again when TGF got here with groceries.  She stayed long enough to put the groceries up, took a few of the things put aside for her, and took DGS on back home. 

DN and I didn’t do very much more.  She fixed supper (steamed veggies and a deli roast chicken) and made a blueberry cobbler in the crockpot.  I found a minor spurt of ambition and cleaned out one more small cabinet (and discovered a lot more “fancy” glass I have to deal with).

The rest of the evening we just watched TV and waited.  DS got here later than I thought he would (didn’t ask if he worked later than he wanted or if he took time to go back home and deal with the dogs before coming).  He did bring me a LOT of big boxes!!  Around 10:00 he left to go to the airport.  Oh, I almost forgot, just before he left, TGF got here with a friend of hers (from the kid’s football group I think) who is looking a place to rent.  It might be a good thing for me if he wants to rent this house; but he works in “the big city” so it might be too far.  I’ll just have to wait and see what he decides.

After DS left for the airport, DN and I settled in to go to sleep.  I didn’t sleep well, even though the chair (not my regular one) was very comfy.  I fell asleep during evening shows, as always.  But I was awake before DS and family got back in.  I didn’t get up, decided they were probably tired and I’d let them just get settled in to sleep.  After it was all quiet, I got up to go to the bathroom .. it was only a little after 2:00 … and turned off the lights.  It took awhile to get back to sleep; and then I heard DS when he got up to leave to go to work.  I didn’t go on and get up until nearly 7:30 .. extremely late for me.  But then, with DIL and the kids tired, I don’t know how long they’ll sleep, so I’m not worrying about getting anything done this morning.

I’ve been stressing a lot over the cost of everything.  I guess partly because I dread the whole idea of doing the yardsale again.  I feel like it would be more successful .. but … not everything would get sold, and I’d still have an awful lot to deal with!  So, TGF is going to check with someone (and DN swa a poster  at the store they went to advertising someone in the other close town) .. see if one of the “professional yardsalers” will just give me a set price for ALL of it! (except the dollhouse). 

I also listed a lot of things (again) on FB.  Someone wrote interested in the cheap window units.  She asked a bunch of questions, then wanted me to plug them in (I didn’t bother to point out .. as she could have seen if she’d looked at the pictures she requested .. that they’re actually still installed!).  Then she couldn’t come until her mama got off work .. and it was after 7:00 before she emailed again.  But then I told her I had family coming and would rather she wait until Friday (which, it turned out, suited her better).  But meantime .. I NEED to sell the expensive stuff.  Why am I the only one on plante earth STOOOOPID enough to buy a giant entertainment center (even if it was the ONLY thing I could find at the time when the old one was collapsing) and a wonderful big desk system and even a **gasp** chest freezer.  And I can’t believe how many people keep telling me where to donate things!!!  Well, is the rental place going to DONATE a trailer??  Is the cleaning lady going to DONATE her time??  Is the funeral home going to DONATE the balance due on services??  Are the utility companies going to DONATE the first month’s service where I have overlapping bills??? 

And on top of that, I tried checking out storage units, and got extremely depressed at how expensive that will be.  Yes, I know, the obvious solution is to not store anything.  Just GIVE AWAY the antique dresser that’s been in the family for years but no one wants anyway.  GIVE away the kitchen table and chair I love even if it means that someday when DN moves out I’ll have none and no way to buy one.  GIVE away (or throw away) ALL of my decorations, Christmas and otherwise, because obviously I will never ever again be able to live in a place I can decorate and I have to go upstairs even if it’s 200 degrees and throw it all away without even sorting because I can’t store it anyway.

I really thought just storing some things and taking time to cull out stuff was a reasonable idea.  Apparently I was wrong.   I know the time will come when the decorating (of any sort) will no longer matter because my vision will continue to deteriorate.  But I’m not there yet, and very depressed at being treated like I am.

Well, the morning is wearing on and there are things I can do without (I hope) waking upp anyone.  So I will take a quick shower, get dressed, and see what I can get done.