Thursday, July 17, 2014

Day 110

Day 110

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Once again, my day turned out quite a bit different than I expected.  Odd, I had thought this would be an unusually quiet week; but it hasn’t turned out that way so far.
I didn’t get up until around 6:00, so didn’t feel so much like I was wandering around in the middle of the night.  It seems to take me awhile to wake up, but if I get enough sleep I don’t feel so disoriented.  I did well at first, and got several boxes packed and some things organized.
In the early afternoon my SIL called and asked if I wanted to ride with her to the grocery store.  And on the spur of the moment I decided I would.  She took me by the PO, and I finally got a package mailed.  Then I went with her to the store (she was getting her basic month’s groceries).  It’s always interesting to see how other people shop!  We went to her house so she could put up the cold stuff, then she took me home.  We had planned to finish emptying 2 bookcases (only a few books left on them), but it looked so threatening we thought we’d better wait until next week.
I did manage to pack up one more box, working on clearing my desk.  Everything on it has to go somewhere, because that is one more thing I need to try to sell.
Also in the afternoon DB called, just to talk a bit.  That always cheers me up. J  He did ask if I know yet what furniture I’m moving, how many boxes, so I can calculate how big a trailer I’ll need.  That’s scary.  I know what furniture of course (other than some small pieces which can be moved by picup if they can be used).  But I don’t know how to figure out boxes.  I’m making progress, but there’s still so much to go through.  And it’s really hard, and depressing. 
Every since about 1964 I’ve never lived in one place more than 5 yeaers at the most – and usually less than that.  So I didn’t really accumulate a lot.  When DH and I got married, we combined 2 complete households; and from that point on, moving got more complicated.  But we “shed” stuff with each move, and at times had things in storage.  Then we got here .. and stayed.   The things came out of storage and were either eliminated, or absorbed into the household.  Over the years I replaced worn out bits and pieces with nicer things.  I bought the first brand new washer and dryer I’ve ever had in my life, that I now have to get rid of.   Most people are so quick to say I don’t *need* so much junk, and think it’s easy to just throw it all away.  No, it’s not.  Things that were hard to come by for me are not so easy to just let go of.
I also need to sell some of the things here that I don’t need.  Moving is not cheap!!  There’s overlapping rent, trailer rent, cleaning help, and so on.  And I don’t know what a lot of things are going to cost, so need to be prepared. 
I did have some things listed for sale on Craigs List and online yard sales.  I did sell a very few of them; but now all the listings are down.  I had wanted TGF to relist with prices a little lower.  But now she’s gotten the idea in her head that I should call a consignment shop and have them just come pick up the big items.  Well, if I didn’t care if it took months – or years – to get my money (which would be less because of their fee), that would be fine.  Mentime, how do I pay for some of the things coming up?  But then, if I don’t sell them I’m no better off.  I guess I will have to consider the consignment .. but not yet.

I know I fret about things too much.  It will all work out.  That’s what I keep being told.  By people who aren’t here, in this house, having to go through and let go of a lifetime of things that have meaning to me if to no one else.   I know my parents went through a similar process, and for some of the same reasons .. too much house, too mucy yard.  But they had 4 kids to whom they could disperse a  very large amount of the *things* that had to go.  And they kept what meant the most (at the time) … moved into more space than I’m going to be able to move into.  They didn’t have to get rid of things just because someone else told them what they could or couldn’t take. 
It’s just all very overwhelming.  Especially the every growing piles of things I absolutely cannot go through without help.  And, I still have massive piles of books.  I’m fairly sure that the bulk of them are now non-fiction; and I *think* everyone interested has had the chance to look through them.  But I don’t even have any place where I can get them all in one spot … and they really need to be taken to the library (and not even sure the library will take so many).   


I really don’t think anything will happen today.  TGF and DIL are both out of town; SIL will be in the hospital to get her 4th (and maybe 5th) stent  (prayers for her would be appreciated!).  I thought maybe I’d see DGS15 this week … how silly of me, of course I won’t.  He’s enjoying having his dad all to himself (even if it means they both wear dirty clothes all week!!).  I’ve not rushed this morning, but it’s time to go on and get the day started and see how much I can accomplish.  Like it or not, today I need to try to tackle a significant portion of this sewing/computer room.

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