Day 253

Day 263

Monday, February 10, 2014

Physical:

This was not too bad a day in most ways.  DH kept waking up and then going on back to sleep (He would say he was still drowsy).  He didn’t decide he was ready to get up until around 2:30.  Once up, he did stay mostly awake all afternoon.    He didn’t eat well – refused anything until I gave him some hamburger helper in the evening.  But of course, he did eat a small bowl of sherbert.

He was mildly confused, as always; but not upset about where he thought he was; and not argumentative.

People:

Since the CAN had car trouble, she didn’t get here and I decided against anyone else.  I hope that wasn’t a mistake.  In the late afternoon DSS came by.  He did pick up all of the trash; but it was too late to take it to the dump.  On the other hand, there’s no school today, so he can take it on his way to work.

Emotions:

The Rx for sleeping pills was not delivered yesterday as it was supposed to have been.  I hoped that as much as DH seems to sleep, maybe it would be OK.  It was not!  I think the trouble is not so much the sleeping .. but when he doesn’t sleep at night, his mind is much worse.  At 2:00 AM, when the idiot cat decided it was time to get out of the closet she’d snuck into for a nap, I checked on him  .. he claimed he hadn’t been to sleep (but I had heard him snoring).  Around 4:00 AM he started with the throwing the covers off and wanting to get up.  From there on  I had to go into his room repeatedly … maybe as long as an hour, maybe only 5 minutes between times.  I have to admit, I got extremely upset … tired will do that to me.  He was convinced he was at the chemical plant he worked at (around 30 or so years ago).  He couldn’t find his clothes.  He couldn’t find his pistol.   He couldn’t find the car keys.  I don’t even remember what else.  I couldn’t “go along” with him, but tried to convince him everything could wait until daylight.  Nothing worked.  I guess I could have tried the gel .. but he wasn’t exactly “agitated” (I was!!), just determined that what he “saw” was truth and not anything I said.  All in all, it was a totally bad night.  I’m exhausted, headachy and grumpy.  I had thought to get u early (but NOT 4:00!) and get some things done, since morning is usually when I have the most time and energy.   I will have to revise my plans for the week.  In any case, according to the weather on TV this morning (Tuesday), it could start snowing any minute and we could get several inches .. and that’s before the “big” storm tomorrow which could bring snow and ice.   I am trying to stay positive; but I am SO afraid of the roads not being clear by Friday .. from here to the coast and also from here to the western part of the state.

The CAN is coming very early this morning.  Because of the weather threat (it’s nearly 9:00 and despite forecasts, not a drop of snow has fallen here) she’s going to start at the south end of her route .. here.

I don’t know if I’ll get anything done today.  It’s been a long time since we’ve had such a bad night.  Apparently the sleeping pills really make a lot of difference.  I’ll have to see how well he does today though … I don’t think the pills making him sleep 15 to 20 hours is a good thing.

One part of me hopes the weekend goes off with no problems.  But there is a tiny mean part of me that hopes someone else will get a taste of what I put up with.  Everyone usually sees DH at his best .. only just a little confursed maybe.  They really don’t know!!!