Day 155

Day 155 (plus)
Saturday October 26, 2013 (plus Sunday morning)
Physical:
It's hard to tell right now.  DH is not doing very well.  One thing in pparticular - started showing up this week, but got really bad just in the last few days: he's having trouble swallowing his pills.  I can't tell if it's swallowing in general, because he refused to eat anything yesterday.  But it's very worrisome.  He holds them in his mouth (and I know some must taste really awful) and it can take 5 or 10 minutes before he'll swallow them.  He does drink water - that goes down.

Saturday he never got out of bed at all.  He just said he felt bad, but couldn't define anything in particular.  He didn't feel "warm" (I can't read a thermometer), and says no pain (except when he coughs).  
Last night I had a very difficult time with the dialysis.  It got started early, but after well over an hour had only drained 2 ml and alarmed.   I tried everything I could think of - including getting him turned on his side (which was extremely difficlut because he didn't seem able to turn by himself at all).  Nothing worked, and I had to just stop the machine.  I got up very early and started over with a new cassette, and everything worked properly.  But, even with a light on and the machine beeping, he never woke up.  This morning around 9:00 I took him ills due, and it was very hard to even get him to wake up just a little - and then it took a long time to get him to swallow them.
On the "positive" side, he's sleeping peacefully.  He's not snoring or gasping (I do keep checking that the oxygen is in place), and not much coughing either.  It's always seemed to me that he slees better on his side.  Many times he's told me he "was" on his side.  But now I'm thinking he wasn't - he might have thought he was; but he c an't seem to turn over.  He's in general much weaker.  I just don't know if this is a new facet of his dementia, or a general weakening, or just a temporary set back, or some infection going on, or something else related to the ESRD.  There are just too many possibilities.
People:
As usual, for a weekend, we pretty much have no contact with anyone on a Saturday.  My son did *finally* call on Friday night; and he called again last night to tell DH happy birthday.  I don't know if DH even knew who he was talking to.
Emotions:
Yesterday I moved furniture around.  Doing something very tiring helps me to not sit around and cry.  I reached a stopping point, hope I can finish today.  Even though he actually sleplt quietly and soundly, I didn't because of worrying.