Day 138

Wednesday October 9, 2013
Physical:
This day was a bit odd.  DH said at one point he didn't feel well.  But, it has turned cold and the house was chilly.  I don't know if he felt bad or was just too cool. He did not want to get up in the morning.  He did not especially want a bath, but settled for a wash up.  He didn't want to get up after the bath; but less than an hour later he wanted to get up ... but only if he could have a blanket in the living room.  Meantime, I had caved and turned on the heat.  
He was wheezing and coughin a lot, but the nurse said that was more sinus than lung.  Still, she did turn his oxygen up to 3 liters.  In the discussion about his recent status, she maintained that some of it is in response to/in resistance to his loss of control over so much.
The CNA and nurse were here at the same time - not sure if that was deliberate or not
DSS didn't call again.  It was DS's birthday; I sent an email because I can't read the phone menu to call.  I was hoping he would call, but he didn't.
Emotions:
Right now it's hard to separate the situation from the weather.  We're into a fourth rainy day (or has it been longer?  I can't even remember.  I just know this has been a Very Wet year!).  I don't do well on dark days (and dread the end of DST!).  Night time isn't as bad; but all the lamps in the world don't help on gloomy chilly days.   
It's hard to figure out what is depression, what is loneliness, what is exhaustion, and what is just S.A.D.