Day 151

Day 151
Tuesday October 22, 2013
hysical:
Whatever hapened on Monday, he seemed to "sleepp it off".  Even after sleeing al night, he slept very soundly until around noon.  I managed to get him to take his 12 hour pills, but that was all.  Just before noon, he woke up - and declared he was ready to get up.  As in, talking clearly!  Well, reasonably so.  I told him he had to stay pput until the CNA got there anyway (she was already on the way).    When she got there, he was able to talk to her and answer questions (other than saying he was 85 - which is, I suppose, better than 39).  She got him washed up, but not out of bed.  While she was here, another nurse called to say she was coming out.  
He stayed in bed all day; not completely happy about it, but didn't complain or struggle as much as I expected.
He ate a sandwich and piece of cake at lunch time.  He had the TV on all afternoon.  In the evening I took him some fried chicken (but later discovered one piece on the floor, which expllained why he wanted a sandwich later!)
Into the evening he was clearly getting tired again, and his words getting more slurred.  Both grandsons (GA) called to say happy birthday.  He was tired by then, and talking a lot of nonsense; but at least it was real words, not jibberish.
People:
The CNA came and got him washed up.  Late in the afternoon nurse "F" came.  I shouldn't say so - but I like her ever so much more than his regular nurse.  She's kinder, less "all business".  The other lady is not gruff or anything.  But "F" is softer.  And she hugs.
We talked for a really long time, and while not reassuring, she at least made things clearer for me.
During the afternoon the neighbor came by again.  She was by herself, and brought a cake (she knew it was his birthday, she had made a point of asking when our birthdays are).  I couldn't communicate, which is SO frustrating.  She did grasp that it wasn't a time to go see him, so she left.  I think she meant to come back later (with translators), but never did.  I shut the doors early.
DSS and his girlfriend came by later in the afternoon.  DSS went and talked to him, but she sat on the sofa and fell asleep.  
As mentioned earlier, both of the GA grandsons called late in the evening.
Emotions:
I spent a good part of the day being weepy, just roaming around.  No one emails me any more.  No one calls.  My one *friend* won't even come visit any more.  I had to give up on the newsletter for the time being, and out of around 100 people who get it, only one commented.  I told the nurse I feel abandoned.  I know a lot of my frustration is from all this darkness closing in on me.  But knowing why makes it no less hard to deal with. There's really no good answer.  There's no one available to "hel" with anything other than DSS.  
Today (Wednesday) is clinic, and DSS is driving us.  I have to fit in all the errands that can't be done on a Sunday.