Day 5

One NEW Day At A Time

Day 5

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

It is Wednesday morning, just a bit before 7:00.  I’ve been up about an hour, and have mostly cleaned the kitchen.  Then, following my “normal” routine (and not wanting to wake DN yet), I came in to my computer.  For 3 days I didn’t even try to set it up … had to get boxes out of the way and get things a little better organized.  So this morning … I have no internet!!    Is this the “new normal”???  I am NOT happy. In fact, I’m furious.  Haven’t I given up enough yet?  I’ve lost my husband.  I’m rapidly losing my vision .. meaning TV (including movies) is nothing but a blur, I can only listen to books that someone else reads (and then the selection is limited and expensive), I can’t enjoy shopping any more.  I’ve had to move from my big house to this small apartment, meaning I was forced to give up over half of my possessions (and at times criticized for what I have hald on to).  I’m fast approaching the time when everything has to be out of the house … tried to sell things but no one wants them (is my taste THAT awful???  Even for a washer & dryer or a freezer???), I have not enough room to store … and the vultures are waiting to just take everything and act like they’re doing me a favor.

I’ve spent months agonizing over what to pack.  Now I get to unpack what was kept, and it’s almost as hard.  I have to re-figure it all out.  Yesterday a friend (casual acquaintenence, but have known all my life) came over and helped me go through a lot of the stuff in my room.  Plus, the maintenance guy finally came and fixed the closet door, which meant I could put away a lot.  He installed the a/c (with my help … while DN just sat and watched), so once that was off the floor we could get the living room better arranged.  It still needs some tweaking, but getting there.  Once there are more lamps in place, and picture and curtains hung, it will look like a real home.

I still have a lot to unpack, mostly kitchen stuff I think.  There’s a lot still in storage (and I got the impression DN isn’t very happy with the idea of more stuff coming .. it’s lamps, pictures, decorative stuff.  I’ve had enough taken away, I won’t be deprived of having a pretty home.

DSis is taking us shopping today.  I have to be very careful, since I can’t check my bank account again.  I haven’t been able to check since I moved .. and can’t tell if it’s a bank thing or what.  I can get a balance from an ATM, but that won’t tell me what has or hasn’t cleared.  Anyway, it’s time to go on and get ready, and hope this internet issue gets resoloved later today!

It’s not much later, but internet is “back” (don’t know where it “was”).  But I still can’t access my bank account … I can’t even bring up the page at all.  There is a message about “sorry for the inconvenience” or something like that, which makes me think it’s their issue .. but for 2 days?  I really need to be able to access my bank account.  And my SS should be in it today … but I have to be absolutely sure before I write a check.

I got an email from DIL.  It’s looking like she won’t be coming up on Friday after all.  Her doctors are changing her meds around AGAIN.  It seems she has side effects to pretty much everything they put her on.  One makes blood sugar drop.  Another makes her dizzy and disoriented.  I know it’s very frustrating for her.  For me, disappointing .. but been saying all along she will come IF she’s able.

Yesterday I got the phone stopped.  Today I still need to call the insurance company to get a copy of my renter’s insurance faxed to the apartment rental office; and get my address changed.  I’m not sure if I’ll bother to change the phone number (I think they have my cell number).  The new system puts a number on the TV screen when a call comes .. and if DN doesn’t recognize the number she refuses to answer it.  I may or may not be right there to hear or answer; and I certainly can’t read the number.  So no one can call me unless she knows who they are.   It’s OK, no one much calls except DB or DIL anyway.

I know it’s all an adjustment process for both of us.  But I think it will be better when I have my TV so I can watch it, and the bigger monitor for the computer. 

DS is coming this morning, so I need to get off here now and get a shower and be ready.  DN is still asleep (wish I could sleep that much, but I just can’t), so need to get in and out of the bathroom before she needs to have her turn.