Day 129

Day 129

Sunday, August 3, 2014

It was a better day; I don’t know if it was because I’m more resigned or because there’s at least a plan in place to get some important things done.  I did have a lot of weepy spells; but some of that was simply my eyes not wanting to cooperate with what needed to be done.  I didn’t completely finish my paper purging project, but I greatly reduced it.  I still have 3 smaller boxes to go through, and I have created several piles as I sorted that I have to decide what to do with.  I’m still having trouble letting go of some things .. like blank paper.  I will have no shortage of computer paper; but I also have notebook paper (not as much, but some) and graph paper.  I’ve already given away loads of that, and still keep finding more.  Apparently I’m a paper hoarder. L  I’ve separated out useful things,  a few things (like special editions of magazines or play programs) that could, eventually, have a degree of significance.   The trick is to decide if they should be put in storage.  If I do just store them, perhaps it should be with a note that they were kept for a reason … and some day when my kids go through my stuff, they won’t wonder why they’re having to bother with junk like that.  At least they’ll know why, and *maybe* check to see if there’s any value before they just throw it all away!

Anyway, sorting through all that stuff (I think there are SIX trash bags .. not full, but as heavy as I could manage) was hard on my eyes.  There is still a lot of stuff spread on the living room floor; hopefully today I will finish that project. 

I also went through some of the totes where I had emptied kitchen cabinets.    After moving a few things to where they belonged, and eliminating some things … I was able to combine the “gadgets” into one plastic box with a lid.    At least there will be only one contained place to search when one of the gadgets is needed.

I got all the pictures down.  I wasn’t sure I could; it involved a bit of balancing on furniture.  But, it’s done.  I’ve got at least a good start on dividing those between keep and store.  I know I will have a very limited amount of wall space; and I’ve been *told* that my BIL is the only one “allowed” to hang pictures (I think it’s just actually that he knows how to do it on a specific type of wall; but I doubt that applies to interior walls).  And I may well end up having to put more back into storage, but I just won’t know until I get there and see.

I do wish I could quit finding more things that need to be done!

My DN called, she didn’t know that DIL had not been able to come at all this weekend.   (Because of the limited time left, a future doctor appointment, and a very restricted energy factor due to health, I seriously doubt she’ll be able to come here at all.  I did ask if she thought she’d be able to manage one day so we could go to the bank, but she hasn’t answered that.  I’m afraid that, too, will have to wait.  I can go on and order new checks with the new address, but it seems silly to do that yet when I want to add her to my bank account.  It just seems like, all things considered, it would be a good idea to have a family member have access to the account). 

DN and DS are coming this morning to get the lease signed.  Hopefully the guys at the rental office have finally fixed the mistake (and they will call first, not waste a trip to town if it isn’t ready). 

I was searching (unsuccessfully as it turned out) for a file and stumbled across a spreadsheet with email addresses.  I didn’t have many; apparently I had started the list nad never completed it.  But it did have the right one for TGF.  I sent a “test” email, and she answered.  She said she and BGS16 will be here today.  Not even a hint as to why they didn’t come Friday as she’d said, or not a word from her all weekend.  I will give her the benefit of the doubt .. she thought DIL was here and she didn’t need to be bothered.  I  wrote her back and said to call first, since I’m supposed to go with DS and DN.  I hope she actually got that email, she didn’t answer.   I desperately hope she can manage to spare enough time to help me ddeal with the trailer and storage … at the very least look them up and write phone numbers big enough for me to read them.

One other thing I hope she will do (and hope I remember to ask) .. or possibly BGS can do as he is good with computers.  I have a Print Artist program, and want to use it to print my phone book pages (and will include email addresses with the phone numbers!!).  The main reason for using that is I can turn the page sideways so it works in the notebook and I can print large without it going on more than one line.  But, I haven’t used the program in a really long time, and never memorized where the different features are.  So I can’t find the supid “save” button!!  Extremely frustrating. I really need to get that information (family, businesses, etc) available in a form I can use.

I usually send a newsletter on Monday mornings.  Without access to my Hotmail account, I don’t have most of the addresses I generaly send it to.  DIL is going to look them up and send .. but she’s not been able to do that yet.   It doesn’t actually matter so much if it’s “late”.  Mostly I want to be able to let some people at least know where I am! I have no way of knowing if anyone has tried to contact me.  I’m thinking I might put the newsletter “on hold” for about a month … it’s really hard to put a “good twist” on this whole moving issue when I’m so tired and stressed and frustrated.  I think both the blog and the newsletter can take on “new life” once I get settled and then make a very conscious effort to have “adventures” and fun and have more interesting things to write about!

I set my alarm a fraction early – a little before 6:00 – to make sure I got up early (even though I always do anyway .. but I have been sleeping a little later on these gray mornings).  I woke up about a minute before it went off!  I can’t even tell how cloudy it is, because it’s extremely foggy!  Now outside looks about like my vision inside always looks. J  I did take time to do the ever present dishes plus a small amount of straightening in the kitchen.  I’m slowly working my way through so much stuff … hard to do when it’s hard to tell what things are.  Plus, as I empty (or get rid of) cabinets .. the things have to *be* somewhere!  So my counters and table are cluttered and it’s driving me crazy. Crazier.  But I keep trying to chip away at it.  I’m still having trouble deciding on what to pack.  I feel like what will happen is that I will only be allowed to keep as much as can be stored in whatever space is left that I allowed to use; and a lot of things will end up getting repacked and taken to storage.  There are at least some people who think that since I’m “blind” (even though I’m “legally blind” but NOT totally blind) I have no need of .. well … anything I guess.

I better get busy for a change.  I’ve let myself get into a sloppy habit of not getting dressed right away.  I write, used to read email, wander around doing bits and pieces … and generally just take my time until after my 8:00 eye drops before I even get in the shower.  I can’t do that today, and really want to get myself out of that habit anyway.  For a really long time I had to get up and be dressed and ready for the day early.  I guess now I’m rebelling; but it’s time to stop that.  I don’t have to be “ready for the day” as early as 7:30 any more.  But waiting until 9:00 (or even sometimes later) is not good either.  So, I change my schedule.  Starting today.