Day 126

Day 126

Thursday July 31, 2014

I seem to alternate between productive days and lazier days.  And truthfully, I’m so overwhelmed now.  There are so many things I can’t do yet. 

So yesterday I started venturing upstairs a bit.  I started out wanting to get down my fall decorations, and try to purge them a bit. I didn’t pull out as much as I’d hoped .. and have also realized there’s yet another box I haven’t found yet.  But in the process I also picked up random things that went into the yardsale boxes.

Now I’m to the point that the yardsale stuff has gotten overwhelming.  I did go through a few things I had packed to store and decided to let them go.  I’m trying to reduce the storage to things of sentimental value or that would be really hard to replace (for example, I have a set of hollow stem champagne glasses .. I hoing to use them for my DGD’s wedding at some point in the distant future.

If I could find buyers for the few things I  would like to sell, I’d be quite happy to call the ReStore to come pick it all up.  I even mentioned that to TGF … her thought was to have them come pick up whatever doesn’t sell at the yardsale (which fortunately is postponed one more week).  The trouble with that is (1) we still have to deal with all the work and hassle of the yardsale with no idea if we’ll even make any money, much less make enough to cover expenses; and (2) I don’t know if they even pick up on Saturday, but even if they do it has to be set up in advance.  They only have a few drivers. 

I have a suspicion they will also get the books and the cameras.  It’s a shame especially to give away the cameras.  But TGF simply cannot (or will not) find time to put them on ebay; and nothing else would even be worth trying.  Most of them have no value, and even the better ones aren’t really worth much.  I wanted to donate them – as a “collection” (which they are) – to the local museum.  TGF said she’d call and ask them if they want them.  I guess I better get DIL to help me do that, TGF never remembers things like that.

But there’s just so much here that if I’m willing to let it go … I need it gone.  It’s totally in the way and making it harder and harder to function in the house.

In the early afternoon TGF came by to take me to town.  I asked her to do something for me quickly, and it involved going to the laundry room (I needed a measurement).  I commented that I still needed to resort the cleaning supplies, because there are too many different things we won’t need, and some things can be combined (several different bottles of glass cleaner).  She asked if I’d send unwanted things her way.  Well, sure .. and she immediately grabbed a FULL bottle of dish soap.    The point of “stock piling” at one time was to have supplies of things accumulated against the time when I couldn’t get them.  Turns out I was only donating to her household.    Once when we were shopping and I was going to get something to send home with DN, TGF insisted that I had “plenty” at home and could just give her some of what I already had. 

I guess I need someone else to take me shopping sometimes. L  I know my funds are limited; but I do resent her telling me what I should or shouldn’t buy, and then she takes things I did have to, at one time, buy.  I’m paranoid about running out of things; and paper products or cleaning supplies don’t spoil.

Well, I’m not “out”.  Shake it off and keep going.

We went to town, and I picked up eye drops.  I was able to talk to the pharmacist, who is a very sweet lady.  I will miss her .. I will miss the “personalized” service (she always remembers my name and what’s going on in my life!).  Then we went to Wally for bubble wrap and a few other supplies.  I treated myself to a pair of sneakers.  I’ve not bought anything like that except one pair of white sneakers several months ago.  I bought some jeans back in February when the only pair I had ripped  beyond repair.  I don’t think a $10 pair of sneakers is too extravagant … even though they are red with silver dots!

We also went in the dollar store .. I wanted a few extra pot holders (not taking any of the worn out and stained ones here), and got very little else.

Once we got back, rested a few minutes, TGF headed home.

Do we see a “pattern” here?  I know I complain about TGF a lot.  She does mean well, but has so many things on her mind that nothing gets her full attention.  She’s determined for me to have a yardsale; but her original plan was to take a car load of things to her house every day so it would all get there … but she hasn’t taken any more for 4 days (and yesterday was the only day she’d finally agreed that the weather this weekend will be too bad to have it).  She never has time to help with much else .. certainly not the boxes of paperwork I have to deal with somehow.  She will glance through the mail, tel me what it is (anything to keep), and hand it back to me.  If I can’t put it in a file immediately, then it just becomes one more piece of paper to deal with eventually.  She has tried to help, to a point, with yardsale stuff; and she’s certainly willing to take stuff I give her (although a large amount of it is still on the table waiting for DSS to come get it).  She “shops” my house.  But she hasn’t actually helped me pack anything.  That’s actually OK, I need to do it myself since I’ll be the one unpacking.  I don’t understand though why she’s worried so much about how much is left to do if she’s not going to help me do it.  She actually only has one more week anyway before work starts.  And the things that need to go to her classroom are still here (not her fault, the school keeps putting off when she’s allowed access because they’re doing something to the floors).  Next week I have one last doctor appointment before my care is transferred to a “local” office.  Once work starts, she won’t be available except on the one Sunday afternoon.  I guess the trash will pile up until moving day.

DSS told me .. a week ago today .. that he was going to come over “this week” to either go through his dad’s books again, or just claim them (I’m not sure which he meant to do).  So far, of course, he has not.  I understand he works 6 days a week and is tired; and I understand it’s hot most of the time.  And I understand TGF has good reasons for trying not to take too much “extra” stuff into their house right now.  But that doesn’t change the fact that I’ll be leaving here.  I suppose I’m to just leave things here for them to deal with before the middle of September.  Which, of course, implies that I’m to continue to work around things that they don’t want to take yet.  I guess it doesn’t matter all that much if anything is in my way.

I’m just way too grumpy in the morning.  I didn’t get up until 6:00, which isn’t really bad at all  But I’m only on my first cup of coffee … evidently I need another.  It isn’t helping that it’s very gray out, and looks to be a stormy day.  I could lose TV and internet reception by afternoon.  And my newest book won’t load onto the Kindle.

DIL is coming this afternoon for a few days. She will help me with some of the phone calls that are needed (reserve a trailer; find out about a storage unit; and I’m sure there’s something else).  She will take me to Best Buy to see what’s the problem with the computer (panic attack – I may have to do without it!!).    I don’t know how long she can stay, but hopefully at least until Monday.  There’s bank stuff that is needed too.

It’s still fairly early (and looks even earlier with no sunshine this morning).  I need to get another cup of coffee and something to eat; nearly time for eye drops; and then get showered and dressed and get the day going.  Since I now have supplies, I need to get more packing done.