Day 80
Monday June 16, 2014
Yesterday was a bit disappointing, and exhausting. I’m doing the best I can, but it’s very
frustrating to not only have limited ability to tell what some things are; but
have no boxes to be packing things in. I
was given very good advice about where to get some … but with no one who has
time or willingness to bother (i.e., TGF refuses to go get anything that needs
to be bought. She insists she can get
boxes. She keeps telling me that I need
the money. Really? Then why were they so willing to spend MY
money – that I have so little of – to go to the OBx?)
My SIL never came over, but she did call. She had clearly completely forgotten she’d
ever said she’d come. But she’s also got
some health issues going on, and the heat effects her badly. I won’t get much “help” from her, but there
are still some books for her to go through, and I have a bunch of stuff put
aside for her.
The people who said they were interested in the kitchen
cabinets never showed up. Apparently
they never put any message on FB either.
Because I got so many inquiries about those from the start, I thought I
had priced them too low. But it might be
that people are ignoring the pix (or can’t tell), and thinking they’re the kind
of cabinets you build in. Whatever. They’re still not sold.
Meantime, I had to try to empty them. I was working on the assumption that if
someone came all the way out here, with cash … they’d expect the cabinets to be
ready to take with them. In the end, I
dragged out my totes. Some of them were
new (slated for gifts eventually) .. but it was the only thing I could find to
put the contents in. I only did one tall
(pantry) cabinet, and 2 small ones. I
still have one of each to empty.
There has been absolutely no interest whatsoever on anything
else. That is depressing and
discouraging. For one thing, TGF is
right – I do need the money. Besides,
what I have for sale is stuff I can’t possibly use in a small apartment. And I refuse to just give it away (I’m doing
that with a massive amount of stuff already).
I hate the thought of having to get a bigger storage unit, but I don’t
know what else to do. (storage unit as
in *ground floor*, not having to be carried up steps!). And that means it costs me instead of making
more money.
Well, meantime, I’ve been using some small plastic boxes (of
which I have a LOT) to pack up various decorative items .. things I know I want
to keep, but aren’t “essential” now.
Every time I pack a little box of things like that, I at least make it
easier to begin to see what’s left.
I started counting bookcases, and nearly panicked. NO, I really do not need so many, especially
since nearly all the books will be gone before the move. But I do have other stuff … pictures,
candles, pictures, flowers, pictures, etc.
And no, ALL of it doesn’t have to be “out” … I can rotate things I
enjoy. If I can get the books taken care
of, I could make myself let go of some (most!) of the bookcases. But .. I don’t seem to be doing such a good job
of selling anything. So one more thing I’m
expected to just give away?
I know this move is the right thing to do. But it’s so very hard to walk away from such
a nice big house to a very small shared place, and be forced to give up nearly
everything. So many people feel it’s
just fine to tell me what I do or don’t “need”, with no regard at all for my
feelings. And someone else encouraging
me to sell everything .. again, with no regard to what I might want to keep …
and yet, nothing seems to be selling.
(half the items listed have never had so much as an inquiry). And I’m being pushed to clean out cabinets
and drawers and everything, and put as much as possible into a yardsale. Well, I’ve never exactly made much money doing
that either. I know this one is
different, and the kids will be able to have a good location. I also know that they’ll end up with a
substantial chunk of anything earned … so I’ll end up letting go of a lot of my
things with very little (if anything) to show for it. And I will be expected to be *grateful* that
someone was kind enough to help me by getting all that “junk” out of the house.
I have to find a way to change my sleep pattern. I’m waking up too early, and feeling tired
and grumpy. But the last few nights, I’ve
tried to watch something at 10:00 … and blinked … and Letterman was on. I totally slept through the news. L Then it was hard to get back to sleep, and
then waking up so early. I’m not really
getting enough sleep. I can’t resort to
sleeping pills (mostly because in general they don’t work). Things like Tylenol PM, or even melatonin
help me go to sleep … but that’s not the problem. I need to STAY asleep, at least until
daylight!
Maybe after the move is done I’ll be less stressed. I know it will take some time to get adjusted
to such drastic changes. And we will
have to learn as we go which areas we will have to compromise on. But at least it should be in more comfortable
surroundings.
I have no clue what I will try to get done today I don’t know when the people are coming for
the table, so I can’t really use it for “staging”. Maybe I’ll set up a cardtable in the guest
room and start piling up the books that are left. It’s a little frustrating, because I’m not
sure which have been gone through. But,
TGF (who is the main one who wants books, for her classroom) has had chances to
go through a lot of them. Once the table is gone, I will put the card table in
the dining room. All books that are “claimed”
but not leaving immediately (I accept that she can’t take her books until she
has her classroom and can put the bookcases in) will have a specific place to
wait. All the rest are going to be
donated to the library. I’ve said I’ll
wait until the end of July … but really, there’s no need. Not many people seem to want actual books any
more. So maybe by the end of June,
whatever is left goes to the library.
There doesn’t seem to be any hurry. But I suppose I’d best start the day and see
where it goes.
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