Day 74

Day 74

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Yesterday was a weird day with  even more ups and downs.  I should learn to never bother to make plans.  Any plans I try to make must, of necessity, depend on someone else.  And that frequently doesn’t work out. 

I am glad I got the heavy stuff done early at least.  Other than that, I did manage piddly stuff .. a load of laundry, finally getting candles on the mantle, clearing a bit more stuff off shelves in the guest room.  Just odds and ends.

The guy from Dr. M’s office called to tell me that there had been a mistake, and my appointment with Dr. J is cancelled.  Turns out Dr. J *only* sees patients with “my condition” (whatever that means) on Friday mornings!  And as of right now, the soonest opening he has is in August .. at 7:15 in the morning.  I told him not to even bother making an aptmt.  I have one with Dr. M in 2 weeks and will discuss it with him then.  It appears that this inflammation is neither significant nor urgent.  Not only do I live 70 miles away, I have to mae arrangements for someone to waste their whole day driving me up there, waiting, and driving me home.  We need a better plan than this … especially since I can’t tell that anything they’re doing makes any difference.  The first time I saw Dr. M he told me he saw signs of past inflammation.  Obviously it cleared up by itself before .. so why put me on all these stupid drops that actually raise my eye pressure.  Before the sterioid drops the pressure was staying in an acceptable (low end) range.  Typical doctors, wanting to fix what isn’t broken!

Then I got some more news, much better; at least, I hope so! LOL!  In 2 weeks my DSis is taking me to see a 2 bedroom apt … and we will discuss the feasibility of sharing with my niece.  There’s an awful lot of pros and cons; but so far, in thinking it over (and a little discussion with DIL), it’s looking like the pros are outweighing the cons.  Until the last few months, I never lived alone in my entire life  So it’s kind of disappointing to consider giving that up so sooon … but, how practical would it be, and how long would I be able to manage alone?  I kknow there are blind people who manage just fie.  But I’ve got a lot to deal with all at once; and having someone to help would matter.  And yes, I know what the biggest “cons” are . but I’ll have my own room with my own things I can fix up how I want, so would have a bit of a personal retreat if needed.  Well, except I can’t really shut the door unless for some reason I need to shut the cats in with me!

Then later in the evening I found out that I won’t be able to take a hoped for day trip to visit my BFF.  It already got postponed once.  I had picked a time based on what I had been told.  But turns out DSS and TGF’ss plans have all changed .. because her next-oldest has driver’s ed that week.  Well, of course, we must have our priorities right.  Maybe someday I’ll get to visit my friend, but I’m really scared to bother trying to plan anything.

And the icing on the cake .. my Hotmail seems to have crashed or something.  I can’t get my folders, can’t get mail.  Eems I can send mail OK.  But when the screens get all screwed up, I can’t see well enough to know how to fix them.  I wonder how long I’ll be able to keep using the computer at all.  I feel like I’ll be so cut off … which is, I suppose, silly.  Once I move I doubt I’ll hear from TGF much or DSS at all.  My DIL will call me.

Well, TGF will be here any minute to take me to the grocery store.  She actually  **gasp** asked if I needed to go!!  So I bettr post this (if I can) and be ready!