Day 78
daym June 14, 2014
So, one phase of my life is over. My husband is, I believe, at peace .. he is
where he most loved to be. It was a
traumatic day in a lot of ways; but the actual “release” went perfectly. And I handled it well. I was afraid I’d be a blubbery mess, but I
wasn’t. I did have one small “melt down”
… a lot to do with communication issues;
my DIL helped, and I got past it.
I was glad DS and DSS and their families (all 8 kids) were
able to come. But they all had issues of
their own .. some dealing with health issues, some just dealing with all those
kids. Oh and the dog!! (DSS’s
boxer) My friends met us there, and I
was ever so grateful!! For one thing,
they went to the trouble of scouting out locations and possibilities ahead for
us. For another, they were not
emotionally “involved” and therefore a bit of a calming influence. And .. they’re just good friends, and I was
glad of some time with them.
We (DS & family plus my friends) ended up going to my
favorite beach bar for lunch. Then we
went back to town to the shop where their daughter works. The kids wanted some souveniers; and my DIL
got me a “dammitt doll”. J
Due to the communication issues, we ended up sitting in the
car for around an hour waiting to meet up with DSS & drew. DS offered to take me on home with them
again; but I really just felt like I
needed to get home. On the way home, I
did wonder why …. I rode with TGF and her 3 youngest. They were silly, annoying, fidgety, whiny …
all the things little boys can be. And
it was a VERY long ride home. We
followed DSS (driving DGS21’s car), and he took about the strangest route I’ve
ever heard of. He went west, then turned
south …. I’ve never ever gone between the OBx area and where I live now by
going through Rocky Mount!!!!
And .. with no apparent concrn for my situation … they were
perfectly OK with me pay all the gas to go up there and back, plus helping
DGS21 with his gas.
This morning I am very weepy; but I guess a large part of
that is just left over tired. Even
though I’m very glad I can now feel like I’ve finally “let go” of DH, I’m still
overwhelmed with what I need to do here.
For all the stress a few months ago about that dratted cardboard piling
up … I now have no boxes to start
packing in!
I know I need to try to concentrate on the things I can sort
instead of worrying about all the things I can’t work on until I have
help. Sadly (for me) I have to seriously
downsize my collection of dishes. I don’t
even know if I’m going to be able to “set” the table any more at all. But I’m pretty sure I can keep the kitchen
cupboard I love (DSis measured), so perhaps I can use part of that for the
prettier dishes.
I suppose if I spent more time *doing* and less time
thinking about what needs doing, I’d accomplish more. Tomorrow my SIL has said she’d come
over. She will take several of the things
out of the yard She will also go through
a shelf of craft books. I don’t know
what else. At first TGF said she would
come over in the afternoons (work in her house in the morning); but oh,
wait. She has something to do Monday (no
problem, SIL is coming (maybe). And
Tuesday she has to go sign her contract.
*Maybe * by Wednesday she can spare me a few hours .. she’ll need to do
laundry by then anyway.
Whatever. It’s time
to get in the shower and then get the poor outside cats fed. I’m sure the little babies are more than
ready. Oh, and I have 2 messages on the
phone about some things listed on Craigs List.
I will call them back (at a reasonable hour).It’s a little discouraging
that the only calls I’ve gotten are about the cheap cabinets that I’m actually
still using Anyway. TGF may come over this afternoon with an
empty tote to get the last of the random small stuff left in the bedroom. I plan to start using that area for things
that can go to the yardsale (Johnston Co. “endless” Yardsale) next
weekend. Since I don’t expect to ever
actually receive any money, it will only be the kind of stuff I’m putting aside
to donate anyway.
And yet, I keep sitting here. Going now!
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