Day 114

Sunday, September 15, 2013
Physical:
I saw no particular difference.  It was actually a fairly good day.  He sat in the recliner around 5 hours I think.   And, he seemed to be mostly "here" most of the day.  
Sleep continues to be an issue; but I think maybe I've been looking at it wrong.  He doesn't stay awake at night because he sleeps all day .. he sleeps all day because he can't sleep at night.  And, having said that, he did a bit better Sunday night.  He woke up around 2:30; and I finally got up about 3:00 to see what he was doing to cause the bed rails to rattle.  
He said he had peed in the bucket.  The trash can was on it's side, and the floor - and sheets - were damp.  I told him to roll on over to the other side of the bed (the way he normally sleeps), threw a towel over the damp area.  He went back to sleep.  I watched a movie, and gave up trying and got up about 6:00.
This HAS to change!
People:
Sunday was a pretty good day, with one small time frame  exception.  TGF and the boys got here mid afternoon.  She and I cleaned out 3 freezers (1 chest, 2 fridges).  DSS came a little later and cut most of the grass.  NOTE: this is the first time in over 30 years he has voluntarily cut our grass!!!
TGF and I went to take a few things from the freezer to their house, then pick up some groceries, pizza, and lawnmower gas.
It was a bit frustrating to get home and find the boys all outside.  We'd tried to get them out earlier (beautiful weather), but they wouldn't go.  When they were supposed to be keeping an eye on grandpa - they left him in the house alone!
Emotions:
As usual, I'm tired.  If I don't get a decent night's rest, I just don't know what to do.  A long time ago he was on Ambien; then it quit working.  The nurse told me it is generally only a short term solution.  Well, I still have some.  I think I'll add one to his nightly pills one time.  I know it can't hurt him; so if it gives him (and me!) a full night's sleep, what a blessing that would be!!
I do at least feel less angry at TGF.   I think DSS must have told her how upset I was about her comment last weekend.  It was never mentioned; but she certainly had a better attitude towards helping.  Of course, it didn't help that I gave her a lot of things out of the freezer; and I bought pizza!
But by the time they left, I picked up the left over trash and clutter, finished getting dialysis set up and DH to bed .. I was so tired I was literally stumbling.