Day 48

Assuming I've counted right - 48 days.  Today we had the home visit from a nurse/administrator from the "middle" hospice agency.  This is the one that got an actual order from Dr. Todd.  And - he was accepted!

I thought I would feel elated.  Or depressed.  Orrelieved.  Something.  But - I just don't feel anything in particular.  Except tired.  So now I'm wondering - has it just not really sunk in yet?  Am I having trouble believing a "yes" after so much negative?  

And as long as he was denied, it meant he's really not "that bad".  And Dr. Todd was careful to explain how it could be renewed.  So was she being reassuring?  Or am I really in complete denial?

I don't know.  I really just don't know.

But, from here on out (well, unless Medicare changes the rules again and he gets kicked out), this will be tracking his hospice care/health issues.  And maybe occasionally my emotions.