Day 17

One NEW Day At A Time

Day 17

Monday, September 8, 2014

This was a better day – as I knew it would be, because of course things always get better.  The difficulty is in never knowing when things could change.

Contrary to what I had thought, it did not get hot.  In fact it was cool and gray all day, getting progressively more overcast as the day went on.  In the morning, though, I got “brave”.  I decided I will not be as trapped as I felt before the move, and I had to take that first step sometime.  So .. I got out and walked.  And I walked all the way to the shopping center .. bought a sandwich (without having a clue what kind! LOL) .. and walked back home.  Because I went a little slower, and paid more attention to what I could tell of my surroundings, I not only had no problem at all; I wasn’t even all worn out when I got back.   It wa so very pleasant out, and the thought crossed my mind that I am looking forward to another month or so and enjoying fall leaves!  I’ll have a huge yard full of them, and don’t even have to rake! J

DN got home around 1:00ish.  Apologetic of course; and if I’m to survive at all, I have to try to “let it go”.  All except for the constant slight eddge of wondering what will happen next, and when.

It was pretty much a do nothing afternoon.  I mostly just watched SVU reruns, and dozed.  Both of us snacked a bit (though I had actually had lunch).  Then DN didn’t want to bother to fix supper.  That was fine with me, as I had also gotten a salad at the market.  It turned out there was something about the salad she didn’t like, so I ate half and have the rest for today. 

Even though I now have a working TV in my room, I can’t  figure out the remote.  DN got the TV turned on, and I finally managed to scrool down (the number buttons don’t seem to work) to the local station.  When I went to sleep, I just turned the sound all the way down and left it on.   A little silly .. I’d have preferred it off; but it’s not completely dark at night anyway, and I was tired enough for it to not matter. 

I woke early and got up to check windows.  It’s not raining in, so I turned up the sound a little for morning news .. and went right back to sleep for almost 2 more hours!    The rain has eased a bit, but it seems like it might be a bit of an all day rainy day. 

It’s September.  It’s a cool rainy day.  This feel “right”.  I hope by this afternoon I can come up with a surt of ambition .. but right now it doesn’t feel likely.  It feels like a good day to start listening to a book. J