Day 38

One NEW Day At A TimDay 19 & 2

Day 38

Wednesday, October 1,  2014

Things change so fast that I not only can’t “expect” anything, I hesitate to make plans.  I might do this, I might do that.  I never know.There are times when the uncertainty or the chanes ae unavoidable.  I understand that.  And a lot of times the changes have nothing to do with me; and yet they effect what I do or don’t do at any given time.  And occasionally, the changes are simply to suit someone else and I get dragged into the change just becaue my take on it doesn’t matter.

I am trying to work on  lining up things for myself and to organize activities on my own.  At the same time, there are times I just want to be lazy; and I don’t want to allow someone else to insist I do something I neither want nor need to do just because it’s what they want.  Selfish?  Maybe.  Can’t I be selfish sometimes???

I  took laundry down to the room by mid morning, and came right back .. all washers except the broken ones were in use.  On a Tuesday?    I waited until early afternoon, and there was a washer available.  Many of the ones used earlier still had someone’s wet loads still in.  I understand that sometimes you just have to fit things in the best you can; but there is limited space for a huge number of potential users.  I would be very uncomfortable removing someone else’s wash, but if it was the only way I could get mine done .. and had been there several hours .. I might.  Anyway, when I went back the good dryers were available.  I did have  to bring my clean things back to the apartment to fold  because someone was using the only folding table; but that wasn’t a big deal.

DN’s plans changed, though it didn’t effect me as much as it sometimes done.  She got a call for a job interview .. a very good job .. which takes priority over everything else (in fact, the ground is too wet still for what she had planned for today anyway).  The original plan was to spend the night at BF’s house, so she did that anyway (“using” him as an alarm clock! LOL).  BF tried to fix the new remote … and can’t make it work.  I’m beginning to believe it is my TV thaat’s somehow defective, though it wasn’t before I moved.  SOOO frustrating. 

After they left (she fixed supper first) I got a burst of energy.  I had a project in mind, a furniture change that would make some areas flow better.  I wish I had done it earlier, it is so much better.  But it took awhile for my mind to process the possibility.

I don’t kknow what time DN will get here, but sometime this morning because BF has to drop her off then go to work.  But she won’t be here long as she has to catch a bus to get to the interview. 

I have no idea how long it will take.  I hope to get the apartment cleaned and tackle the linen closet.  I know I don’t have to wait until DN isn’t here.  But for one thing, I work better alone to do things my own way (and I do not take kindly to someone who doesn’t lift a finger to help trying to tell me how to do things).  Anyway, it just bugs me to be cleaning while she just sits around watching TV or napping.  (we had initially planned to do the closet together.  Then it “evolved”  to I would do it and she would be “available” if I needed help. Well, no thanks then.  I’ll just do it and tell her where I put things).

I’ve not heard from DIL yet, so no idea what (if anything) will happen this weekend.  It’s not bugging me though, because it’s a situation no one can control right now.  Plus there will be other weekends.  But DN and I will go to the church supper tonight; and probably the Bible study after since I think she has us a ride home.

I guess I need to go on and get dressed and ready to tackle whatever I need to get done.