Day 41

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Day 41

Saturday, October 4,  2014

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Last night for some reason I got into a weepy spell.  Mostly I’ve done well, other than “outside provocation”.  But I just felt so horribly sad and alone. 

It didn’t help that DN kept talking about her and BF and his friend were meeting another couple at a restaurant.  To be fair, she wasn’t trying to “rub it in”.  She isn’t wired that way.  She meant well in making sure I had enough leftovers to get through the weekend.  Anyway, I wasn’t upset with her at all; I just had a “down” night.

We had a good day (and maybe I was over tired).  We got out early and caught a bus into town.  Then we caught a different bus and rode way out to a WalMart.  We did a little shopping, not a lot (anything had to be carried).  I was really hoping to get curtain rods for my room and living room.  But the windows are so wide it seems the only option is going to be café rods with 3 brackets.  And those would be very awkward to carry on a bus (DN *said* she did not want to do that, though I know if I repeat that later she’ll insist she didn’t “meant it that way”. Whatever).  So I have no idea when I’ll ever get to have the curtains up.  DN did want to call her mom … but I don’t feel like her mother should have to buy the curtain rods.  So until such time as I can arrange a ride to a place to buy them, I will have to live without curtain rods … and therefore without curtains.  Once I ever do get the rods, then I will have to wait again for BIL to instal them since they are all (obviously) on outside walls.

Anyway.  We ate lunch at Subway, and then caught the bus back in toward town.  This time we got off at the big shopping center, and caught another bus back home.

Once we got in, after a brief rest, we each took a load of laundry to the laundry room.  When we got back, DN ran the vacuum and I cleaned the litter box, swept and mopped the bathroom floor, and dust mopped the apartment.  I went down and moved the laundry to a dryer, then came back and swept and mopped the kitchen floor (DN had washed up her glasses that were in the sink).  The apartment might not be “spotless” … but it’s neat and uncluttered (mostly); and the floors aren’t gritty or sticky.

I went back down expecting to have to put more quarters into the dryer; but everything was dry enough to pull out, so I semi-folded the things that were most lokely to wrinkle, then brought both loads back.  I know DN would have gone down to get her own; but I didn’t want to just leave a basket of clean laundry sitting there … and they weren’t heavy, just a touch awkward.  I managed.

From that point on, I mostly just sat here in my room with my TV.  I emailed a bit with my BFF, but otherwise just “watched” TV.  DN’s friend popped in to say hello and they all left.  I got up to put the chains on the doors; to do eye drops; and to get my leftovers. 

It seems like today I will get to go to hear my DGD16 in a band competition.  There’s still a chance that could change; and I have no idea what time.  So that leaves my morning a little bit in limbo.   Since we cleaned yesterday,  there’s nothing “urgent” I have to do. So I will wait until after the morning shows I like, then get a shower and dressed .. and just be ready for whatever.  If for some reason the outing doesn’t happen, I can still walk to the library and get help on using the DVD player they sent me.  And maybe exchange the books!