Day 34

One NEW Day At A TimDay 19 & 2

Day 34

Thursday, September 25, 2014

It’s still only Wednesday night, but I feel like writing.  I’ve been screamed at today to stop, but I am anyway.

The day started out OK, even considering it was chilly and pouring rain almost all day.  Once again, DN got mad at me because I didn’t want to walk all the way to the shopping center in the rain.  Turned out she hadn’t gotten *all* the facts,.  OK, to clear things up: DNa is a nurse.  DN2 is muy “flatmate.  DN3 lives on the other side of the world.  So, DN1 picked us up and treated us to lunch.  Nice.

She took DN(2) to her appointment.  I finished going through the boxes on the floor. 

DN got home, took a nap.  Then all crashed.  She wanted to change the plans for tomorrow, and I had the nerve to object.  She got mad at me .. as usual.  Then I made the HUGE mistake of venting to DN1. 

Long story short, DN1 axewMWS r mw ro arop xomplININF IN WMila.  Rhwn ahw apwnr rhw ewar od rhw wcwninf ahur in hwe eoom.

I apwnr rhw ewar od rhw wcwninf qiahinf I Hs my homw NS MY HUAVns Vxk.

I nwELY POLIAHWS ODD  vorrlw od qinw .. vur nor sonw ywr.  I know, I’m not supposed to say anything, complain or vent or anything.  And if anyone dares to comment on my blog, DN2 will likely scream at me again.

I hope I have enough wine to last me the next 11 months. I just don’t want to be here.  I want my home back, mice and bugs and all.  I ant my husband back.  I want my *real* life back. 

Please, whoever bothers to read this, DO NOT call or email DN and fuss at her.  It does not help, just makes things worse. It’s all my fault you know.  I’m over emotional, over sensitive, over stupid, whatever.  I tried standing up for myself.  It just made things worse. 

I hope I have enough .. or can get enough .. wine to make it through 11 more months.  I will live in a cardboard box under a bridge before I continue to be treated like  this.  I know, it’s my own fault.  Sorry, I just don’t like to be yelled at and I *try* to be conciliatory (pretty good word for a whole bottle of wine) .. but it just doesn’t work.  I never know when I’m going to say the wrong thing.  I just cannot meekly accept orders to do this or that.  And I’m pretty sick of being told how good the “exercise=ze” is for me whenever she wants  to force me to do what she wants to do.  I’m to the point that I don’t care about stupid exercise!!

Bottle of wine is empty.  I guess it’s time to go to sleep.

Day 33

One NEW Day At A TimDay 19 & 2

Day 33

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Another busy day keeps the weepies away.  Well, not totally, but it’s better.  I didn’t rush, but I got my laundry all together, and walked on down to the room before DN was even awake.  And discovered that my key wouldn’t work!  Drat!!  So I had to come back and wait for her to get up (and yes, I *could* have woke her .. but since I want to avoid any chance of temper, it wasn’t worth it!).  As soon as she got up I got her key, then got started.  With the “false start” it took me 5 trips back and forth, but I got it all done.

After resting a bit, we walked up to the bank, and then on over to the grocery store.  DN got a month bus pass (thanks to her mom!!); then I waited at Starbucks while she got a few grocery items.  My newly discovered addiction is salted caramel mocha .. too expensive so a rare treat; but oh so good!

After resting a bit (yes, again.  I’m old!), I started supper.  It started out to be a “recipe” .. but I sort of put it together as I went.  Chicken, pasta, broccoli, cream of chicken soup, mayo, and a dollop of sour cream.  I baked it to get everything hot all the way through, then added cheese to the top until melty.  Once again, it was suddenly “OK” for me to play with knives! LOL!  It turned out OK, but next time I’ll use rotisserie chicken (this was a combo of canned and some sort of “seasoned” strips).

We watched NCIS and the new one … which I found harder to follow.  I had a fairly busy evening with emails too for some reason.  But part of it is that my class reunion (50^th!) is all taken care of .. a lady in the class got me registered and sent the address for me to send my payment.  It’s in about 3 ½ weeks now.  I will have to find a ride for some of it; but because of my new location I hope that won’t be a problem!

A new season of another show I like started .. and of course I couldn’t stay awake for it.

It was a cold night .. we had to pull the windows mostly down, and get out blankets.  But it’s fall, and the chilly weather (rainy today) won’t last. 

Today DN has a doctor appointment, and her sister is taking her.  We’ll meet at the shopping center for lunch; but I’m not going along since the doctor’s office says I’m not allowed (they’re “too busy” to have my point of view on DN’s issues .. but it’s OK since her sister is going and knows her well plus is a nurse).

I don’t know what I will do with a few hours to myself!  There are multiple projects  I should work on.  But a chilly rainy fall day seems to call for a good book!  

Day 32

One NEW Day At A TimDay 19 & 2

Day 32

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

I had a busy day, and very nice.  I took my time in the morning to get a few things done and showered and dressed. I got my chicken salad made (oddly enough, for all the *jokes* about how it isn’t safe for me to handle knives, suddenly it was fine for me to chop chicken, celery, and grapes!).   DS got here as promised around noon.  We took the biggest of the extra totes down and she took me to storage.  We went by WalMart for a few groceries, and then to BoJangles for some lunch.  She took me to my doctor appointment (after a small amount of searching since I completely forgot to get the address .. just knew the road and general area.  Fortunately she was able to look on her magic phon, so we got to the right place on time).  It is a much busier office than the one in Durham, with much longer wait time.  But I did like the doctor.  One particular issue I had she dealt with in a completely different way than the previous doctor had done.

After taking me back, and talking for a bit, she went on home.

Since my salad was done (which turned out quite yummy), supper was quick and easy.   A new season of a favorite show started, and a new show started.  I had to choose, so missed another favorite (just have to break down and pay extra for a DVR.  The monthly fee isn’t a problem.  The exorbitant fee they charge to come connect it is!). 

Last night .. or rather, I guess, early morning .. was the first time it was on the uncomfortable side of cool.  I’m still not ready to have to close the window; but a light quilt felt good.  I woke around 6:00 (because I forgot to get DN to reset my alarm from Sunday morning when I needed to get up earlier).  So I got the quilt and went right back to sleep for another hour and a half. 

I started on dishes this morning.  There’s a bit there, because in addition to supper (not many from that) DN made cookies.  I had to refill my soap dispenser, and as usual got soap all over the outside too.  By the time I got it rinsed off the sink was backed up with bubbles.  Oops.  So I still have to go finish that. 

Later (after DN gets up) I have to do laundry; and then we’ll walk over to the bank, and possibly do some other errands.  I may want to go by the library and see about getting someone to walk me through getting the download for the audible books on Kindle.  I think DN has other stuff in mind to drag me to as well.   We’ll have to see how well I can hold out ..I must get laundry done.  I’d prefer to do it more than just once a week … since I finally have a key, maybe I can manage.   There just have to quit being so many *plans*.  I’m very close, I think, to having everything done that I’ve needed to handle invvoving the major changes in my life, particularly moving.  I have ID, my bills from the “old life” are almost paid (will be this week), and I’ve made steps toward a more social life (church and the VIP* social group). 

For now, it’s time to get the kitchen cleaned, get myself dressed and ready to go start my laundry.  Then we’ll see what the day holds.

Day 31

One NEW Day At A TimDay 19 & 2

Day 31

Monday, September 22, 2014

It has been one month today since I moved to this apartment and started this *new* life.  Some of the issues I’ve faced have been resolved; others have not.  There are things I just have to learn to live with.  I can’t really say much .. it’s all about compromise.  I can’t help but feel like I think I’ve been “giving in” more often than I should, just to keep the peace.  I will be OK because I have no choice.  But what happens when the next 11 months are over is anyone’s guess.

Yesterday morning I got up early and got showered and ready for church.  It amazed me that DN couldget up after 7:00 and be ready to go on time.  I wish I could do that, but I just can’t.  BIL picked us up; because he had usher duty, we were early.  So, we sat in the lobby for a long time.  DN had grown up going there,  so she knew quite a few people.  Most she just spoke to as they passed by.  A few stopped to talk to her a moment, and she introduced me.  Of course I won’t be able to remember any of them!

I wa surprised to find out that the early service included a choice between traditional and contemporary.  We ended up going to the contemporary service.  I did enjoy it, although I have to admit the  preacher’s delivery method was a little unnerving (lots of long pauses at odd intervals).  After the service my other DN spoke in the lobby … the only person who really spoke at all. 

DN changesd her mind over and over about what meals we’d have when.  I don’t know what’s up with that.  But she asked me to make us an omelet.  I guess that was brunch, a little early to be lunch.  It took awhile .. I’ve not had a chance to *learn* that stove (and it seems to me to heat very slowly, and I don’t think it really has a “high” heat; at least not on the burner I was using).  However, I did manage to produce a tasty omelet for us.  She did the dishes (wasn’t much since I tend to clean as I go).  Then later she wanted me to make chicken salad for supper.  I just told her I wanted the day off!  I got out my Kindle, and listened to a book I’ve been holding on to for over a month.  And, I “read” (listened) to the entire book!!  Which, of course, is why I had put off reading it.  Once I start, it’s very hard to put it down; and I had no real reason to do so.  DN finally went on and cooked the pork chops .. she decided against a “recipe” and baked them, but it was fine.  I also took time to watch a new show … unsure if I’ll want to watch it again or not.

And here we come to one of the issues I have a problem with.  I haven’t said anything .. because honestly, I don’t know what reaction I’ll get; but I’m sure it will all be my fault anyway.  Last night .. as on many nights … DN was watching the living room TV.  The new show came on we had both said we wanted to watch; but it was late due to football earlier.  So she came and told me it was on but she was going to her room to watch something else.  So, I went to the living room to see the show.  Only, I needed the sound up a little.  Now here’s an issue:  I’ve been told I’m “not allowed” to touch the remote because “it’s complicated” (in theory she will show me at some point how it works .. but she’s managed to avoid doing that).  I know how to turn it off only.  So basically, she’s hoarding the living room TV for her own personal viewing, and I only get to watch if she’s got it on something I want to see.  This will NOT last much longer … I will NOT be forced to just stay in my own room while she has the entire apartment at her disposal (but I get to clean it all).

Anyway, that isn’t the point.  At some time .. I have no idea when … she closed her door and went to bed.  Now she is not expected or required to say “good night” of course.  But … why is it just automatically MY job to turn off the TV, turn off lights that aren’t on timers, check tht the doors are locked (the chain wasn’t on the back door last night), in general shut things down for the night.  I sort of feel like it’s just as much her responsibility as mine .. especially when I’m in my room and she’s in the living room.

And yes, that’s a minor petty point.

And as long as I’m in “whine mode” .. there’s another issue I have no idea how to handle.  We went to the church supper, and I enjoyed it (except that ridiculous race to catch the bus).  I liked that we had a good meal that neither of us had to cook or clean up after.  But I also enjoyed the social aspect.  She knows a lot of people .. we sat at an empty talbe, and it filled.  I’d like to keep going.  But, since she has no job she has no money (except for things she really wants of course).  So the only way I can go is if I pay her way.  I mean, I probably could manage to catch the bus and get there by myself (might be tricky find the right stop, but I could ask the driver).  But I just can’t see me trotting myself off alone, at night, and leaving her home.  But I cannot afford to take her every week … that would put a nearly $50 dent in MY income, and it’s already stretched fairly thin.  We’ll go this week; but after that, if she doesn’t get a job, I guess we won’t go.  I will keep going Sunday morning though .. any time her dad (BIL) can’t give me a ride, I think I can manage the bus in daylight.  She may or may not go, I have no idea.  But at some point I have to be able to do things on my own.

I hope it’s not too long until I hear from the Blind Services people.  Of all the things the social worker told me, what I’m most enthusiastic about it their VIP social group. 

Today is my eye appointment with a new doctor.  It will be interesting to learn how she handles my various issues.  The previous doctor just kept putting me on the steroid drops; but I have no idea what was causing the continued inflammation.  He was going to send me to a specialist about the inflammation; but it turned out that doctor had such limited time slots I couldn’t reasonably get there.  So now I’m starting over in a manner of speaking.  It’s the same practice but a different location and doctor .. she’ll have access to all records.

DSis is picking me up early enough to help me take the rest of the “excess” stuff to storage.  Then we’ll try to find curtain rods long enough for my room and the living room windows.  DN said she wasn’t going, though she could change her mind at the last minute I suppose.

I guess I should go on and get the day started.  I’ve already done the dishes; but I have to go on and make the chicken salad I promised.  Somehow the original plan has gotten changed into me doing a lot more of the cooking.  It’s not that I object … but I do feel like we need to renegotiate the division of chores.  I resent that I’m expected to just ell her what to do and when to do it .. and be OK with that.  And yet she has no problem at all with wallowing on the sofa or her bed watching TV all day (or on FB, or taking 2 and 3 hour naps) while I do all the cleaning.  But that’s a conversation to wait until after her doctor appointment later this week.

It’s nearly 8:30, I really need to be up and about.  Or at least get in the shower.

Day 30

One NEW Day At A TimDay 19 & 2

Day 30

Sunday, September 21, 2014

With a nearly whole day to myself, I got a lot accomplished.  The “hidden” corner in my room is organized .. still has boxes; but not as many, and I know pretty much what’s there.  The pile in the middle of the floor is gone.  And even better, my (2^nd) closet now works better.  There are still things to deal with.  I have narrowed the “desky” stuff down to a small pile, but I still have to go through it.

I also got the secretary desk *done* (unpacked things for the shelves, and tucked what I decided not to use right now into drawers).  I went through the boxes of fall and Halloween stuff and put things out.  I wasn’t going to do that; but realized that I always push getting Christmas out early.  So it seemed only fair to DN to put this stuff out early since it’s what she enjoys so much.  Except the things in windows .. they still have to wait another week I think.

TGF and her friend never called, emailed, showed up or anything.  That’s no surprise; and it was only the friend saying “maybe” anyway.  Funny, though, how people who claim to care so much about me suddenly can’t be bothered to make any effort to get in touch; especially ones who owe me money.  Well, lesson learned I guess.  Never ever trust anyone.

By early afternoon I was done with cleaning and organizing and stuff, and really tired.  I spent the rest of the afternoon just rocking and watching SVU reruns.

Around 6:00ish (I think, didn’t really pay close attention) DN and BF got here.  They brought some groceries (including a rotisserie chicken, because once DN decided the one she’d gotten earlier wasn’t “as good”, apparently it is to be thrown out and not used for anything).  I do finally have a laundry room key of my own! Yay!  Also BF tried very hard to get my remote working. They pulled up programming directions on line to use .. he could get it to turn the TV off and on (but it took a long time to do that), but nothing else will work.  I have never been able to find the receipt, so I guess on payday I’ll just have to buy another one.  It won’t be one that expensive for sure, no point.  The bigger buttons don’t really help; on the next one I’ll just use some of my tiny cork dots to mark the buttons I need to use.

DN did not, after all, cook.  I suppose I could have insisted since she’d said she would.  And if I had, she would have cooked .. but she’d also have been grumpy about it and I just didn’t think it was worth it.  So, we had chicken sandwiches.  BF had gone on home .. and some other friend of hers came by and visited for awhile in the evening.  He sure seems to come over a lot; but apparently he never asks her out or anything.  He must live close by .. seems to just come and sit and talk, watch TV, for an hour or so … filling in time between classes or something.

Also BF hooked my monitor (TV) back to the computer, it had come loose.  But, when I turned everything off last night I hit the wrong button (more cork needed) to turn off the monitor.  So this morning I can’t get it to come back on .. gave up and for now am back to just the laptop.  I think I have to come up with a better arrangement for using it before I can use the big monitor and keyboard. 

I’m almost afraid to say this or that will happen today, because it seems like nothing happens the way I think it’s going to any more.  But in about half an hour (and it’s only barely beginning to be daylight) BIL is picking us up for church. DN, of course, isn’t up yet.  I got up around 6:00 to shower .. but was awake long before that.  The guys upstairs were up and clomping around by 4:00 … they left the building (also talking loudly) at 4:45; and about 10 minutes later came back.  Within 20 minutes all was quiet again .. but I was awake and no hope of going back to sleep!  So I got my coffee started and cleaned up in the kitchen before getting a shower. 

I guess I better go on and finish putting myself together so I’ll be ready when he gets here.  

Day 29

One NEW Day At A TimDay 19 & 2

Day 29

Saturday, September 20, 2014

I find it confusing and frustrating when plans keep getting changed.  I don’t get much “input”, I’m just told this or that will or won’t happen.

However, I did decide I did not want to go out at all.  There have been too many “outings” .. not that they’re all bad, and some were necessary.  But I really want to finish getting things organized!  One of the things discussed with the SW was the need for organization.  I’ve been slowly working towards that goal for years; it is even more important that I get much closer to it while I’m able.  I know my vision will continue to deteriorate .. I need to be able to cope as it fades.  So, I put in several intensive hours of work in my room.  And, as always when a project is mid way … the room is a disaster!

By early afternoon I had reached a stopping point .. just too tired and achy to continue for awhile.  I got showered and then rested until mid afternoon.  The BF came by, and gave me a ride to storage.  He and DN helped me take the accumulated boxes to his truck … they stood at the bottom of the steps and ferried them to the truck while I carried them down the stairs.  It’s a good thing his truck filled up, because I reached a point I could not make it up those steps one more time!  It was easy though getting them stowed on shelves; and I brought back more of the fall decorations (still have to hunt down the rest of the Halloween ones).

As soon as we got back I got supper started (my turn).  I fixed oven fried chicken, so once it was in the oven I could just go put my feet up!!  Supper turned out good

Right after supper DN and BF left, and I had the rest of the evening to myself.  I would really have liked to keep working on this room, and some other areas.  But I was just past my breaking point, I couldn’t do it.

DN and BF will be back sometime this evening.  I don’t have any clue what time, but she said she’ll be doing dinner tonight.  The lady who did my taxes said she’d try to come sometime today; but that will probably depend on TGF, if she has other plans or whatever.  And I don’t have a time frame other than it’s highly unlikely to be very early.  Hopefully I’ll have enough energy and time to get my room in order, get the kitchen cleaned (DN took one bag of trash down with her, and didn’t take the bag that has sat there 2 days since she’d said she would .. so I’ll need to take that before it gets stinky); and do some general straightening.  How does it get so cluttered so quickly??  Or maybe the better question is why do I care?  I just cleaned (although I’m already finding places that let me know I didn’t do a good job).  It seems every single day I’m going around picking up stuff … but I don’t know why it even bothers me if it doesn’t bother DN.  Oh well, either I pick up or learn to ignore it.

It’s time to get myself busy while I can!

Day 28

One NEW Day At A TimDay 19 & 2

Day 28

Friday, September 19, 2014

My day did not turn out quite as expected .. and of course, by now, that’s what I should expect!  It started out with doing some cleaning.  Mostly I worked on the kitchen, right down to mopping the floor.  I also worked on dusting the row of shelving.  Then I stopped and worked in my room a bit, doing more to better organize and declutter.  I also went through 4 or 5 boxes, about half of which I decided to send back to storage for now.

I stopped around noon to shower and dress.  I continued working in my room awhile until the lady from Blind Services came.  We had a very interesting and productive conversation.  She was able to give me a few tips that will be very useful; and I realized that many of the things she said I’ve already done (as I explained to her, the vision has been going over a long period so I’ve had to gradually find ways to adjust).  She also had some excellent tips for me which I will put into effect as soon as I can, but they involve more work than I have time for right now (like organizing my closet).  She told me about many different services available (some of which involve long waiting lists, like a class about dealing with technology that won’t even be open until next spring and I had to go on and get on the waiting list!).  Some one will contact me about the class and arranging transportation, but not any time soon.  Some one else will contact me .. I think in a few weeks, not sure … about other tips and aids, including a white cane.  That is a controversial issue for me … I don’t feel like my vision is far enough gone yet to justify that.  I’ve been managing with the cane I have (helps a lot with my joints hurting), and don’t feel the need for people to “recognize” me as a visually impaired person yet.

There is also a service from the library where they will send me some sort of player and I can get CD books.  I admit the Kindle has me spoiled in that it is so easily transportable.  And I can download software from the library to get audible books (just waiting for DIL to help me with the download).  However, I’m not at all rejecting the opportunity for more variety in what’s available to *read*.

After all that, the “service” I am most excited about isn’t an actual service through the agency at all.  It appears there is a very active social group among the large visually impaired population in this county.  I had no idea!  And after being virtually anti social for a very long time … I’m not at all opposed to meeting people and making new friends.  There’s even a sewing support group … that got me very excited. (and it turned out the social worker is also a fabric collector!).  Hoefully I’ll be hearing from someone about that very soon.

After she left, I rested my achy foot some, and worked more on tweaking in my room.  Later in the afternoon a friend picked up DN to go apply for a job.  While she was gone I cleaned the litter box, swept and mopped the kitchen, finished dusting the bookshelves, vacuumed the rugs and damp mopped all the floor areas that get walked on.  It may not have been as thorough a cleaning as it could have been, but I was exhausted!

DN had asked me to go on and brown the hamburger so she could do supper when she got back.  I find it odd that she asked me to do the one thing that is the most difficult; but I now she didn’t really think about that.  But she took much longer than expected (there’s that word again!).   I found out later she *might* have already had something to eat.  (when I asked she didn’t really give me a straight answer).  A little disturbing that she was OK with me not having any supper after I had done the hamburger as she asked.  It got put in the freezer.

Anyway, DS/BIL actually got here before DN got home. They got started right away on projects.  The secretary is now secure and I can put pretties back on the shelves.  The spice rack is firmly attached to the door so bottles don’t fall down into the bread tray.  Many pictures got hung (there are more, but more hangers are needed).   BIL got my computer hooked to the small tV … which will work great as soon as I figure out the best way to set it up! 

There was one point during the evening that was a downer, and it still upsets me.  I was telling my DS about the SW coming and some of what she told me.  When I mentioned about the white cane, suddenly DN made a huge issue of that.  She even said if I refused to use the stupid cane she would move out!!    I was very upset that she was so determined to *meddle* …. And DS pretty much told her to mind her own business, that was something tha was up to me.  DN wouldn’t let it go, insisted she refused to be responsible for someone who insisted on acting in a way that was dangerous (not her exact workds, but the general idea).  She’s the one who walks so fast I can’t even keep up; and I’ve ventured out on my own and can manage just fine.  She certainly has figured out I can manage to go to the laundry room or the dumpster .. and can’t use a cane at all with my hands full.

I don’t even know when I’ll hear from that lady, and I need to just let it go and not make a big deal … hard to do when I’m annoyed.  Also later I mentioned I would like to go to church on Sunday, but DN has decided she doesn’t want to go (she had originally said we could go if I wanted, and I said I did.  I don’t know why she changed her mind).  I have no way of telling time, so would just have to walk to a bus stop and wait; but if that’s what it takes maybe I will.

DN’s sister also came during the evening.  She brought her big dog, which made Maggie most unhappy!  I couldn’t help but laugh at her .. she’s not really had any experience with a dog that big; and he wanted to play with her.  She mostly hid under a chair and growled.

DNS brought flowers, wine, and desert.  Lovely!! J   We drank wine in red solo cups (I don’t know why that’s just so funny to me … I actually have wine glasses, though I haven’t  yet unpacked the only ones I have more than 2 matching). 

I forgot to say, the day started out with the cable guy coming to fix the living room TV/remote.  I really don’t think DN cared about anything else in the world but being able to just sit and watch TV.  But he was unable to fix the remote to my TV  … it works (the lights come on), but it’s not sending any signal at all to the TV.  BIL also looked at it, but he couldn’t do anything either.  As far as I can see my option is to take the remote back and get it exchanged … but …. I can’t find the receipt.  This is extremely frustrating, because I never throw away anything.  I have a bunch of receipts all stuff in a drawer (now in a basket).  DN went through all of them, but the one for the remote isn’t there.  I can’t figure out what I did with it.  I’ve looked through wallet, purses, everywhere I can think of, with no luch.  If I can’t find the receipt, I’m just out of luck.  At least I can adjust it … DS finally located the very well hidden manual buttons.  It’s awkward to reach; and means I’m back to having to scroll through all channels to try to find the one I want  I can’t get DN to understand about helping me figure out what’s on and choose.  She will only tell me 2 or 3 things that are on, so I don’t have the option of choosing from ALL those channels I’m helping pay for.  Last night I was scrolling down, trying to find something.  She “helped” … just held the button down (she could see the numbers going by) and stopped at the channel she wanted me to want to watch.   This morning I found the local channel I prefer for morning news; but it’s been difficult so far to figure out how to get from one to another … they don’t seem to be in any logical order.  I suppose after payday I’ll have to buy yet another remote.  The frustration mounts.

We weren’t able to put up curtains except in the dining room .. the windows are all too big for even a shower rod!  So my window and the living room will wait for sturdier long curtain rods … will have to be another week, but that’s OK. 

I’ve been sleeping weirdly lately.  I wake up off and on; and while I feel like I “toss and turn” a lot, I do sleep more.  I didn’t get up until 7:30 this morning .. I seem to wake with daylight, which was later because it’s overcast.  It’s now 9:00.  DN is still sleeping.  I need to find some breakfast and maybe start working in my room some more.

Tonight is my night to cook supper (and what was it I did last night??) and BF is coming.  He said he would give me a ride to storage to take some of the excess here.  The apartment sure will feel better .. and more open … when the extra boxes are gone!  So, I guess I should get busy on some of the ones in my room in case more of them need to go.